tae kwon do

starbucks
the warm chocolate cake rocks!
hahas.

ate a coffee bean breakfast today with my sis before tuition
mocha latte and the carrot cake
angmoh carrot cake of course
its the only cake ive tried there so i had it
after then my sis and i drove to changi airport to fetch my dad
he went to china for work
and we took quite a while to figure out the way
but hey
without me i doubt she would even reach!

today's tkd training was stupid and fun
stupid because we did stupid stuff at the start of the trg
but at the end we had contact sparring
haha
sure feels good kicking and punching people
sense of satisfaction is great
and we had pentagon sparring(pentagon is five sides right?)
yeah so 5 people together and spar
its so fun
adrenaline makes you feel seriously no pain
ha ha
just numbness
and pure coolness.

and its also Sir's bdae!!!
so he treated us with pizzas and fried chicken wings
so nice right.

you will never see me cry

'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

[Chorus]

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

i'm only as good as i want myself to be

i have a fucking cold and fever
fucking hell
it hasnt made me feel any better to what i am feeling now
i don't deserve this
i don't deserve where i stand
i don't deserve to be where i am
i deserve to be where i should be
but that's not up to me to decide
i hate this endless life
there's no light at the end of the tunnel
there's no fucking light
i had enough of all these bottling up
all these shit i have to face and eat
i shouldn't never ever been into 3A
it had never been in my mind to become part of the best class in RV
and damn the responsibility is high to be in it
you have to look up to the expectations of the teachers
who keep on thinking that 3A is the best class
that 3A is the top
sorry
but i dont think so
you guys are just biased
you look at us as if we are perfect and flawless people of the world you live in
but hello
we are just like you, humans they call it
like the bio common test
no one in our class got less than a B4
then ms lee said she wanted to remark
then the bio teacher tell her that 3A is like that one
i mean
come on
one day i will just prove you all wrong
i will just go against what you determine 3A is;
smart perfect obedient intellectual flawless spotless people
if that's the case
than i certainly don't belong.
im just a scum everyone looks down upon

you dont deserve me
and more importantly i dont deserve you.

and the people there are all hell muggers!!
i don't care if you are from 3A or not
you read my blog
you accept it
and hate me for life for all i care
which i seriously don't at all
they study study study study study
do work so quickly
yeah im stupid
call me dumb and childish and retarded and whatever you can call me
but i don't understand how you people can study non stop for so long!
there is so much more to life than study
sorry but getting good results isn't my aim for education
but these people aim to get good results
they obviously mug so damn hard to get a fucking A1
they say RV is competitive
yeah absolutely
undeniably so
what they have are good results
what i have is nothing
but i like it the way it is.

then i go home
and face what we all call a family
what we know is a family
but then again
what is a family to me?
what is a home?
a family is a bunch of people you OUGHT to be grateful to because they brought you up, nurtured you, gave you money, fed you, etc.
but i don't
a home is a place where you and your family live in happily and care freely without any worries whatsoever
but mine isnt
its just a house with people who make life so much harder for you
they dont care
they have no remorse

sometimes i feel like dying
but don't worry i won't
im not that negative in thinking
i just wonder who would shed tears for me when i die
who?

your words felt like a knife
it cut me into half
and then another half
and again......

no i aint pretending i care

my legs hurt like mad
pain like shit
its trouble getting up and especially down the stairs
no difference as few days ago
im crippled!!!

but still i went out with the 2kzers for dinner and fireworks yesterday
not so much fun i guess
merely bought cake and ate dinner at vivo
took pics
went marina square shopping centre the rooftop to catch the fireworks
half of the fireworks were blocked by the even higher rooftop of part of the building
but still
there's not much of a crowd there
i took alot of pictures
but all of them suck
you need a proper camera to get pictures of fireworks displays
a 2 megapixel camera of a iPhone just wont do
and yeah
i think fireworks are really romantic.
prove me right.

the iPhone is out in singapore
with the 2nd generation iPhone out
my phone feels inferior now
haish
hahasss
but!!!
i can proudly say that my phone is the 1st generation iPhone that you cant buy!
but thats just a consolation.

i feel like eating Ben's and Jerry's
let's go.

common test is almost over

yay
still left with math test
which i hate because i suck at math
or rather
i don listen to Mr Tan in class.
haha
i love the common test life!
because i am sitting at the last row and at the corner too!
which mean i am almost invisible to the teachers
muhahaaha
and its absolutely fun!

i hate it when coach asks us to do stuff that are really tiring
like jump up and down holding a 3kg medicine ball
i think the reason it is called a medicine ball is that it because it is bitter, but helpful
but i feel that its not helpful at all!
now my thighs ache like crazy
i cant even climb a step without holding on to something
even going down the stairs is a problem!
its like the lactic acid is stuck there in your muscles forever and wont go away!
pain pain pain.
i hate gravity
like the Joker said in The Dark Knight: "all it takes is a little push"

i wonder if you meant what you said
if you didnt realise how much it hurt
then i am telling you now
damn it hurts.
and i hope that you are as happy as you are pretending.

finally, 48 years later.

i have a headache
today's sun was so hot
i think i had heatstroke
throbbing headache and a numb stomach
i feel like closing my eyes le
haaas
so many people pon cca today
year 4s go back early
sec 3 got 3 people never come
i shouldnt have came too
there was almost no break at all larh
just between drills when its not your turn you can drink
and its not more than 10 mins per (break)
completely shagged.
i cant write anymore.

pics galore!

went to my maternal grandfather's birthday celebration yest
its an annual thing
everytime go to a teochew restaurant
because they are teochew
and the food is nice too
and so are the people there!
okay no more talk and here are the pics

family photo!

cold crab!!!!

mixed platter!!

some really special shark fin soup

smile:)!!!

prawns

yes. ABALONE!

fish

salted chicken!

aha! WINE!

no im not drunk yet.

vegetables. yuckD:

smile again!

and again!

here comes the cake!

huff and a puff and no more cake!!!!

YUMMY like mad CAKE!!!

this photo was torture for the triplets.

uncle eric +his triplets + wife + parents

BYE!

happy national day

todays national day concert was such a BANG
so fun
i think its the least boring of all the concerts ive seen in rv
cos the items showcased were some what OUR generation
haha
don't you just agree
and they are all damn cool
whooooo
good job ppl

mercy

i bought a new book yesterday at Borders
yes its Jodi Picoult again
titled MERCY
wanted to buy her new book this year
Change of Heart
but apparently the price is twice that of this
so i bought mercy instead
its about: i dunno cause i havent read it yet
but it questions when does love cross the line of moral obligation and what it means to truly love another.
i think its about this guy called Jamie who killed his wife Maggie as she was dying and didnt want her to suffer
however he has no other evidence to clear his name other than his own mouth
and he went to his cousin Cameron who is a chief of police hoping that he would help
but the law is the law
but its kinda interesting as how many ppl can actually kill your loved one just because you loved her so much?
you can't right
neither can i

I have questions for you that i never got the chance to ask: do you look like you did back then? Would it have made a difference anyway?
Do you think of me, when you least expect it? And can you leave it at that, or do you find yourself compulsively sifting through the memories?
If i had been the one to leave, would you have written out your heart to me?

hope you're as happy as you're pretending

i watched WALL.E
its damn cute
seriously i love it
i love wall.e's droopy eyes
so sad;(
and the story is like a love story
only that the main characters are robots
REALLY CUTE ROBOTS!!
dont ask me how i watched it now that its not showing anymoreXD
just noe i watched it
and i strongly recommend you to watch it
you can get it from meXD
haha
shhhhhhhh~

chem test was totally lame shit
i wonder how people can write on and on about so many observations
maybe i see things simple
maybe i don't observe well
but i dont see how they can write so much about nothing happening to the reaction
i think its plain kiasu-ism
i mean
they expect higher marks for more words
come on
you're just writing all those to comfort yourself that you wrote alot
and that every blank is filled in
sorry
but that's what i think
that we should lead lives just to fill in the damn blank.

i realised that during geography lesson that the teacher always talks about exams
she keeps on saying wad kind of questions the exam will set and how to do them
i think its crap
that means that she teaches geography just so we can pass our exams
meaning that we take geog just to get a damn grade
i find no meaning in that
songwei says yarh thats the way it is
i say no that's not what education shld be!
but i guess the whole rv is liddat
never finding meaning in what we learn
after all
it's just for the exams, right?

Bye BYE

Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

microwave popcorn!

its monday tmr and i have a hell lot of homework undone
and obviously i don't give a damn about it.
yeah
all ive done is a few questions of physics assignment 11
LOL
so im just hoping that i dont get too big a punishment by teachers tmr

YAY MICROWAVE POPCORN
i think its damn nice
and easy to make
hahas
my dad bought this packet from the US
BUTTER flavour
i think its nicer than honey or salted
xD

its hell out there

i have nothing much to post about these days
yeah
so bored
been downloading movies off the net and watching it off my phone
and i tell you Wanted is fucking nice
so cool larh
imagine you can curve the bullet like they do
then the gun would be so much more versatile
but then again its got nothing to do with me
hahas
but its a cool movie
and The Happening
is totally lame and boring
only for the parts where the people kill themselves
but they didnt show what happen to the guy who put himself in front of the lawnmower!
i expected to see blood but none at all
hahas

i see people who are so selfish and self centered everywhere
especially during OBS
these are the people who would care so much about themselves
and not give a damn about others
only when they have completed their own stuff then they come and help
and i hate that kind of attitude
and im not saying i don have this kind of habit
but whenever i see such attitudes
i tell myself that i dont wanna be like dat when i grow up

this is life.