funny how it isn't funny at all.

i have never ever gotten very far from regret,
no matter how hard i try.
you can widen the feet of a compass,
but they are still attached at the top;
you can spin them away from each other,
but you always wind up right where you started.

the secret behind the numbers 220 and 284:
break up the number 220 into its proper factors and add them up you will get 284
1+2+4+5+10+11+20+22+44+55+110=284
break 284 into its proper factors and added up you will get 220
1+2+4+71+142=220.

which means 你心中有我，我心中有你。
haha aww so sweet.
lol..


okay i had enough of bball already.
last week tuesday and wednesday two trainings in a row.
then thursday had a match.
monday this week had match again.
yesterday had killer training and friendly.
today wednesday just finished training.
and later have match against jurong west at 6.
i fking need a break.
today i woke up at 7.30 and i wanted to go back to sleep.
den i realised i had cca today at we had to run 2.4 under 10:30
which meant we had to reach before 8.
i didnt even bathe or wash my face den go off le:(
sucks.
ages since i ran 2.4
but i passed anyway hahaha:D
i think after lunch i so am going to have afternoon nap and then wake up go match.
i want to wake up late from tomorrow onwards!!!!!!!
yesterday when i was out with alvin and grace they were saying they all wake up in the p.m.
totally unfair!
nvm later is the last match of the year.
and this time we will win it.

time to sleep!!!!:D

if only life's like a basketball play.
that we can rehearse over and over again.

somebody

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I refell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[Chorus]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

[Chorus]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [5x]


great song.
just a song.
but love his vocals.

220&284

did i ever tell you the secret between the numbers 220 and 284?


has anybody realised how ironic life really is?
not the kind of "Why is iceland green and greenland ice" kind of irony.
but rather the kind of way that we humans work tirelessly to create every world problem,
and then start complaining all about it.
we do stuff to destroy the world
and when we realise that
we start whining and blaming everyone.
its like as if we shouldn't have taken the first step at all.
look at climate change now and think if 200 years ago we never invented the light bulb,
never found electricity,
would the world be in the dire straits it is in now?
if you were to disagree with me;
wouldn't that just be one more of life's ironies?

we all want to do the right thing.
yet it seems that whatever we do involves doing the wrong.
fairness for example.
what is fair?
how can a 200 dollar parking ticket fine be deemed as fair for someone who earns 100 a month and another that earns 10000 a month?
how do we judge something like that?
values conflict.
absolute principles may seem fine in heavenly abstract but right here on earth they engender clashes.
morality is hard to define.

okay im too free to be thinking about such stuff okay.
anyway i ordered THIS! (spend money again:( )

yes its whey protein
and seriously speaking its just a supplement and i dont see whats de big deal about taking it.
cos apparently all it is is that people isolate the protein from whey and make it into powder.
and taking a few shakes is as good as eating tons of meat.
minus the fat.
plus the only bad thing except from farting alot and having bad breath is that taking too much of it will overwork your liver and kidney and you might end up having kidney stones.
also
taylor lautner and hugh jackman also got take protein-.-
okay why shld i be defending myself.

i dont know why its called "getting lost".
even when you turn down the whole street or alley,
when you find yourself at a dead end
or a road that turns to dust,
you're still somewhere,
its just not where you expected to be

stitched himself so neatly into the weave of her heart that letting him go would mean unraveling herself.

dreaming out loud.

i am broke as broke can be!!!
though i have about 70 dollars in savings.
but that money is to start up my saving for a dslr.
so currently now in my wallet i have 15c to spend.
today i brought like more than 8 dollars out for training.
and i just realised i spent 8 dollars on drinks.
and drinks alone!!!
stupid one training also can spend so much money on fluids:(
ive decided to survive on plain water.
argh.

i cant believe im in the team for the boon lay cup.
but at least it feels good to be in the team.
and pretty much adds alot of confidence towards my basketball skills.
that im recognised!:D
but also i hate the stress and nervousness when theres competition.


Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know

Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time

Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you

Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you, yeah

daughtry rocks.
their songs are all great!:D
i mean his songs.


all i've got.

be a part of me

i havent no idea who reads my blog nowadays.
but i dont care.
just say what i want to say here.
also nobody else to say to what.
plus i "dont think its super cool to tell everybody what im doing."
LOL quote from peter chao.

not that we dont say anything.
but we must know where to draw de line.
to keep everyone from bitching about you la.

anyway today i went to gym and swim again but this time is at delta sports hall with leon and leslie and yujun.
its so much better to have people you know exercising with you la.
and then after that i went yujun's house to mahjong with wenxuan bryce and junming.
so fun:D
won four times:D
which is the most amongst everyone.
hehe and then played texas poker with mahjong tiles as chips.
its a wonder that im still awake even though i slept for less than 5 hours.
seems like a cup of coffee and two cans of redbull a day works:D
im not going to sleep earlier than 12 today also.
like i havent for the past week:(


ha this is so true about people nowadays.
and it isnt just about how cameras make us so obsessed with capturing the best shot even if it means insulting our humanity.
its also how the people in front of the cameras act
are what we see on the screen even true anymore?
whats behind the facade we see of people everyday?
or has it become second nature.

scary huh.

You can invent any fiction and call it a life;
I thought that if I did it often enough,
I might start to believe it.

Sometimes,
when you don't ask questions,
it's not because you are afraid that someone will lie in your face.

It's because you're afraid they'll tell you the truth.

free to fall

heres how my day went.
i went out of house at 9.30
took train to JE mrt to meet the bballers.
ended up waiting till 10.40 cos there are always latecomers
den took train to QUEENSTOWN when our destination was queensway
cos apparently all of us missed the commonwealth stop=.=
den went there and bought new bball shoes
ate lunch
den took bus to harbourfront.
and from harbour took train to SENGKANG
for friendly match.
and it was 2pm.
but we started playing at 4pm=.=
cos the b division played first.
damn sian la travel so far also never play alot..
and i just got home only.
nevermind
at least i got out of house right!!!:D

so we are going to have a new principal.
and i think that is completely retarded.
cos its like everyone is talking about him
and its not in the good way!
i mean if you have such a bad history with students
den why still come to a new school
when everyone knows ALL the bad things about you and hate you=.=
you should just quit!!!
even my sister was talking bad about him too.
and worse
he's racist?
just commenting on what i saw over the internet,
how can someone who doesnt have any respect over the singapore policy of multi racialism can become one who heads a school?
aren't principals supposed to have role model principles?
oh yeah i forgot
nobody's perfect.
maybe thats why he is posted to a chinese school like RV.
if you get my drift.

THE FACEBOOK TRICK: press up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, b, a, enter key. Now, scroll up and down and magic circles will appear.

ooo cool.
im so suaku.
anyway facebook sucks also=.=

totally agree with him

err gym+swim tmr anyone?

heal the world.

omg damn funny.
nicky's videos are all damn funny!!
LOL.
here are somemore:D






and this too!

found this myself.
lol


haha entertained my boring day at home.

intracacies

i have a new life!
lol
nah doesnt count as new life.
but i sort of have new goals la.
and they include
me myself and i.
heee
happy happy.

i ate the KFC oriental chicken salad today.
and the dressing is just super salty.
which made me realise that it is to cancel out the bitterness of the vegetables.
which is kind of how this feels.
numbing myself to forget the pain.

nah just kidding.
i didnt finish the salad in the end anyway.



damn act cute!
lol.



and this one damn cool la!
watch 0:18
frigging cool!

haha credits nicky for giving me the links:D
LOL

know that history is indelible.
you can mask it;
you can patch it smooth and clear;
but you will always know what's hidden underneath

what if

im too lazy to blog abt Qingdao la.
i just realised how much going to Qingdao felt so much like a dream
now im back,
everything just comes crashing back.
reality kicks in and suddenly i realised that nothing changed at all.
so right now i have about a little less than a month to rot.
i feel that theres nothing such as fate
that nothing is responsible for what happens to you but yourself.
its just whether you wanna do something about your future
maybe thats why i dont believe in god
dont believe in Confucius
dont believe he can make you pass your exams by praying to him.
because logically
he can't.
plus its stupid that a city cannot develop because none of its buildings can be taller den Confucius' temple.
so sad right.

okay i digressed.
where was i.
holidays
this holidays im gonna do what i wanna do
and what i wanna do only.
thats cause i sort of love being in control with my own life
sounds self centered but im used to this feeling
gives me a sense of satisfaction.
but right now i dont have any plans:D
maybe i wanna go out.
but ppl
i dont have any money.

i wanna get a DLSR
so im gonna start saving up for one.
1000 bucks i predict i am gonna take a year and alot of starving.
which i dont know how i am gonna take it
cos i eat alot in school:(
plus i dont just want a 1000 bucks one.
maybe the new EOS7D
ouch.
make that two years.

shall finish 牵牛花开的日子 first:D
TOTALLY ROCKS.

Don't speak
I can't believe
This is here, happening
Our situation isn't ri-ght
Get real, who you playing with?
I never thought he'd be like this
You were supose to be there by my side

When you say that you want me
I just don't believe it
Your always ready to give up
but never turn around

But what if i need you baby
would you even try to save me
or would you find some lame excuse
to never be true
What if i said i loved you
would you be the one to run to
or would you watch me walk away
without a fight

Im so sick of worrying
watcha gonna quit over anything
I could trip and you'd let go like that
And everything that we ever were
seems to fade but not the hurt
Cause you don't know the good things from the bad

When i say that i want you
you know that i mean it
and in my hour of weakness
there's still time to try

But what if i need you baby
would you even try to save me
or would you find some lame excuse
to never be true
What if i said i loved you
would you be the one to run to
or would you watch me walk away
without a fight

Everytime i speak
you try and stop me
cause every little thing i say is wrong
you say your noticing but you never see
this is who i really am
that you can't believe
makes me wanna know right now
if it's me you'll live without
or would you change your mind

What if i need you

But what if i need you baby
would you even try to save me
or would you find some lame excuse
to never be true
What if i said i loved you
would you be the one to run to
or would you watch me walk away
without a

Oh baby, What if i need you
(what if i need you?)
yeah yeah
(what if i need you?)
What if i need, what if i need you?
(what if i need you?)
Oh oh i need you
(what if i need you?)
i need you you you

i think it is a matter of love;
the more you love a memory,
the stronger and stranger it is.

back from qingdao!

i just got back from the airport:D
spent 9 days in China
Qingdao Jinan Qufu and Shanghai.
quite a fun experience i must say.
going out for 9 days without your parents
gotta be fun wad.
and the weather there rocks after you get used to it
which is like 3 days and 2 long johns everyday later.
talk about the fun part first.
the friends you make
the cold weather
the hotel bathtub
the late nights staying up and hanging out with the year 4s after midnight
the sightseeing
and the shopping of course
etc.
oh the booze too.

then de sucky parts.
the teachers are always on our heels
the food is always the same!!!!!!!
breakfast is hotel buffet
lunch is restaurant 10+ course meal
dinners is ALSO restaurant 10+ course meal
got tired of spinning the table and pouring the teapot by the 3rd day:D
hahaaa
also sucked was the fact that we had to go stupid places like museums and bore ourselves out.
and then write reflections every night
den have to heed by the lights out time
get teachers knocking on your door all the time
get scolded
blah.

actually it is quite okay la
except that we have to abide by the school rules
and the schedule.
we wake up like before 7am everyday!!!=.=
past that it is quite a fun trip to go to.
put me into a different place from that of singapore and i took abit of relaxation there
lots of things that we learnt
like how to slash prices the Chinese way.
i bought a pearl necklace that was priced 1480 yuan for 200 yuan only.
so friggin worth it.
although it was because got locals help us haggle la:D

i just started loading the pics into my comp.
so later.