i wanna put the song in the previous post as my blog song! but i don't know how. well...

anyway, today was quite an exciting day. because the chem paper got me sitting on the edge of my seat. well of course its supposed to be hard. MYEs for JC is like that. get used to it.

This is such a nice song to listen to while on the move.

She's blood, flesh and bone
No tucks or silicone
She's touch, smell, sight, taste and sound

But somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen
Yeah, yeah

(Chorus):
'Cause she's so high...
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high...
Like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high...
High above me

First class and fancy free
She's high society
She's got the best of everything

What could a guy like me
Ever really offer?
She's perfect as she can be
Why should I even bother?

(Repeat Chorus)

She comes to speak to me
I freeze immediately
'Cause what she says sounds so unreal

But somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah

FABULOUS SONG TO SING TO. its the OST of the strangely funny movie "She's Out Of My League".

Oh god i missed you so terribly, it was almost like having you here.


We all know that our brain filters out stuff that are sometimes of no importance to us. Just like how you tune your radio to the right frequency to listen to the right channel, our brain focuses on the stuff that we want to work on and chucks the extra stuff. If not we would all be going crazy trying to concentrate on something while the fan is creating a racket, the grinding sound of tyres against tar, the screaming lights of the day. That would pretty sure make us a radio tuned to two channels at once, static noise coupled with many sounds going off at once.

So automatically our brain filters out info that are either so common or unimportant, or so regular and insignificant. It does make you want to ask, does that happen with love to? Does your brain block love out from your consciousness just like it blocks out the sound of the fan? Will you ever get so attuned to it that you subconsciously begin to take it for granted?

It does make you want to ask too: is love ever conscious? Do we ever, ever, think about anything rational in love?

Me? The rational part of me says we don't.
Oh darn what does the rational part know about love.

What do we want?

We are layers of criss crossing imprints and reflections; indentations from parents, friends, and chance encounters; mirrors when planning, yearning and rembering. We can become whirlpools of conflicting emotions and passions, of decisions and agitations, of admirations and jealousies, happiness and melancholy. When such chaos is overwhelming, we begin to agonize about what we 'truly' want. Yet, once we start to identify structure, we gain a sense of what we truly want, of what sort of character we truly are. To search after something more in 'truly' wanting, in 'truly' being, is to search after a chimera, an illusion, an impossibility.

And, being an impossibilty, its not just impossible to obtain, but also not worth the having.

Daydreaming

i ripped this right off facebook. im so bored.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, mp3 player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 15 friends
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Jai Ho

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Here I Come

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Wake Up Call

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Emergency Room

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Face Down

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Fingerprints

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
We Started Nothing

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Move On

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
情歌

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Your Face

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Ego

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Use Somebody

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Importance of Being Idle

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Watcha Say

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
All The Right Moves

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
The Best of You

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Funny the Way It Is

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Know Your Enemy

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Psycho Bitch

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Welcome To The Black Parade

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Beautiful

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Elevator

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Two Is Better Than One

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Hate(I Really Dont Like You)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
What Hurts Most

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Dance Hall Drug

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Back For Good

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Dont Wait

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Daydreaming.

Somebody once told me that there are certain elements that you can't mix together, because even though it seems like they'd be perfect together, they're lethal. Bleach and ammonia, for example. Or you and me.

It was a relatively satisfying day for me. Watching nba finals with the bballers and den after that playing basketball with them later. It has indeed been a fun day and a great break off the books. Even more heartening to see that ever since i quit basketball at least they haven't despised me and that basketball havent either. I lost my touch for a while but i got it back later in the day. I realised that i cannot forget basketball, just like you find it hard to forget the good things in life that are difficult to come by. However it doesnt mean that will put me back into bball. Because theres just something different about competitive basketball and recreational basketball. But no doubt the four year stint in the basketball team certainly has brought to me many great moments in secondary sch. Just that people have to move on one day right. And so happens that i am the one that is capable in moving first, and without regret. Because think about it, without regret, we wouldn't be desperate for time travel will we? Okay thats just plain random.

Saving gaia?

"saving the Earth means saving ourselves"

No actually saving the Earth is just trying hard to redeem ourselves. Purify our souls. After what we've did to this planet.


Memory isnt something that stays with you at all times. It's a quantity that gets summoned or evoked or brought to mind. It gets carried to an arena for our viewing pleasure. By definition, then, there are times it must go missing.

Lets see if this works. Im currently blogging on my phone but apparently i cant use sms because blogger does not support sms blogging outside of the US. So i have to use my gmail on my phone. Which is well not as convenient as smsing but still nvertheless mobile enough. So if this is a complete failure den well i give up on it. Back to a larger keyboard it will be then. So meanwhile get used to having to look at capitalised first letter of every sentence. If not then you really should stop reading books.

So apparently as apparent as it can possibly seem there just two more weeks left to the "mid years exam". Its really such a bore just staying at home and imagining: am i really gonna have to sit around the house all day or what? Well i did. Not for today. Jiajun nicky and kitkay came to my house at 9am to watch the nba finals game five. After that we watched some tv, played twister(yes can you believe they played twister, i didnt. I was watching), UNO!, and some com games till nicky started falling asleep. Den went for lunch. At about 2 plus. Lol and i whiled my whole afternoon away on my computer. Rewatching fringe season 1. Yes i got to the second episode only-.- and thats about it. So i guess i have to make up for the time lost today.

One thing i learnt about life that physics cannot explain. Is that it doesn't progress in a completely obvious way. Life isn't similar to trajectories as working in a mechanical and therefore totally predictable way. It isn't like a cannonball being launched and you know where it will land even before it lands. A moving object will continue in its path like Newton said; just like how life will continue to go on like it always and forever will. However the way we lead our lives need not. It is in our hands that this trajectory will be diverted. But no matter what we do, it is all unpredictable.

Ahh, food for thought.


Maybe Fate isn't the pond you swim in but the fisherman floating on top of it, letting you run the line wild until you are weary enough to be reeled back in.

Then again i dont believe in Fate.

check this out

no im not an iphone hater. but this website really predicted some the new features that the iPhone 4 has. before it even leaked out. this really reveals how predictable Apple's marketing strategy is. haha it is releases new features in its iPhones slowly which each generation and these new features are already in other phones.

Front facing camera
Video calling on mobile phones never really took off due to interoperability issues between carriers and the exhorbitant prices charged for calls but if done right Apple could reinvigorate this area with the power of the internet. What’s more likely to happen though is they’ll introduce it on the iphone and keep it proprietary but still tell everyone it’s totally revolutionary.

Multitasking
This one is still a maybe but if they do finally catch up you can bet they’ll make it look like they came up with it. Even if jailbroken iphones have been able to do it since the beginning

so true.

only difference is that the actual iPhone 4 has a 960 by 640 pixel resolution. that is really really good pictures on the iPhone. i mean really. you wont see pixels. not with 300 plus pixels per inch. thats plus one for the iPhone. check it out here


well im not gonna get an iPhone until it becomes more of a trendsetter than a epitome of "trend-following". maybe the iPad will be a better bet. yesterday i was on the train when some woman walked in with a iPad in her arms. it was completely pretty(the iPad). and she had a iPhone too. but well holding a iPhone is "nothing new", a iPad is SOMETHING.

point of information, the apple products that start with a "i" have a capital second letter. iPod, iPhone, iPad, iMac and finally iTunes.

click on the photos to view the entire article from boston.com

everyday we are alive, an estimated 19000 barrels of oil are leaking out from the bottom of the Gulf floor. thats just a catastrophe. its just ironic how oil is something we humans require so much and yet now its causing such a disaster that we cannot seem to stop. apparently we know how to endlessly extract the oil but fail to be able to stop it.

Ironically... millions of years after the mass extinction of humanity, our oily fossilised remains may be discovered by a future species - perhaps they will be an intelligent life form and leave the mess where it belongs, relegated to the geological archives as a reminder of the cleansing power of mother earth.
"Man has given a false importance to death. Any animal, plant or man who dies adds to Nature's compost heap, becomes the manure without which nothing could grow, nothing could be created. Death is simply part of the process." Weiss

Posted by Shane Clifford June 3, 2010 01:15 AM

then again, there is no god.

Joker : Don't talk like one of them. You're not, even if you'd like to be. To them, you're just a freak...like me. They need you right now...but when they don't...they'll cast you out like a leper. You see, their morals, their code...it's a bad joke, dropped at the first sign of trouble. They're only as good as the world allows them to be. I'll show you. When the chips are down, these...These civilized people...they'll eat each other. See, I'm not a monster. I'm just ahead of the curve.

Damage is permanent; there will always be scars. But even the angriest scars fade over time, until it was difficult to see them written on the skin at all, and the only thing that remained was your memory of how painful it had been.
Even so, your memory begins to fade.

have i said that before? well im saying it again, then.



she looks horrible here. but well songs make my blog much more interesting. ain't it?



we often want the unobtainable. the unobtainable is sometimes unobtainable because of practical matters, but sometimes because of deviancy in our wanting.

what is love anyway

martlets start with how i spent my day. i went to school in the morning to pass yithong something. but he told me the night before i would pass it to xiaopang because he'd be there. so i appeared in sch at 10am and neither of them were there. so i calleed xiaopang and he apparently was sleeping at home, saying he wasnt going to sch. so i sat down and waited for yithong to reply me. not in the library though, it wrote: "enter the library in your full school uniform" or something like that. so i sat outside sweating my fluids out. got fed up enough to leave the things at the sc room.



then it was too early to go home, so i went to chinese garden to get some photos. not the best time to get photos, when the sun is high up in the air, but nevertheless quite a interesting trip alone. i kinda like being alone(if you didnt already know). it makes you think about alot, and in more ways then one they are good for the soul. well after all we come into this world alone and we leave it alone too. i wonder why they call it "Alone". why our heart can go sour broken and bursting all at the same time.



so after i had a terrible plate of chicken rice i went back home and watched "how to train a dragon" on the computer. and thought that it was really quite ridiculous. i mean is it some kind of coincidence that those dragon act like dogs? like the pets that we humans have. which tells me that the scriptwriters have not let go of their preconceived notions of what a pet should be. which puts the movie at a very factual level when it is supposed to be a fictional fantasy. spoils the whole experience quite a bit. im sorry im a stickler for little details in what i watch. i mean isnt it just fun when you find a little glitch in movies and stuff?

anyway speaking of shows. we ALL need to watch fRINGE. J.J. Abrams is such a freaking genius. im hooked on it and its just so marvellous how the plot can unravel itself so wonderfully. all things just link up and explains everything. more more more fringe please! damn im so buying the DVD.


You finish sewing one seam shut, and another rips open. I have come to believe that this life i'm wearing will never really fit.