Monday, December 28, 2009

funny how it isn't funny at all.

i have never ever gotten very far from regret,
no matter how hard i try.
you can widen the feet of a compass,
but they are still attached at the top;
you can spin them away from each other,
but you always wind up right where you started.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

the secret behind the numbers 220 and 284:
break up the number 220 into its proper factors and add them up you will get 284
1+2+4+5+10+11+20+22+44+55+110=284
break 284 into its proper factors and added up you will get 220
1+2+4+71+142=220.

which means 你心中有我,我心中有你。
haha aww so sweet.
lol..


okay i had enough of bball already.
last week tuesday and wednesday two trainings in a row.
then thursday had a match.
monday this week had match again.
yesterday had killer training and friendly.
today wednesday just finished training.
and later have match against jurong west at 6.
i fking need a break.
today i woke up at 7.30 and i wanted to go back to sleep.
den i realised i had cca today at we had to run 2.4 under 10:30
which meant we had to reach before 8.
i didnt even bathe or wash my face den go off le:(
sucks.
ages since i ran 2.4
but i passed anyway hahaha:D
i think after lunch i so am going to have afternoon nap and then wake up go match.
i want to wake up late from tomorrow onwards!!!!!!!
yesterday when i was out with alvin and grace they were saying they all wake up in the p.m.
totally unfair!
nvm later is the last match of the year.
and this time we will win it.

time to sleep!!!!:D

if only life's like a basketball play.
that we can rehearse over and over again.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

somebody



You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I refell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[Chorus]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

[Chorus]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [5x]


great song.
just a song.
but love his vocals.

Friday, December 18, 2009

220&284

did i ever tell you the secret between the numbers 220 and 284?


has anybody realised how ironic life really is?
not the kind of "Why is iceland green and greenland ice" kind of irony.
but rather the kind of way that we humans work tirelessly to create every world problem,
and then start complaining all about it.
we do stuff to destroy the world
and when we realise that
we start whining and blaming everyone.
its like as if we shouldn't have taken the first step at all.
look at climate change now and think if 200 years ago we never invented the light bulb,
never found electricity,
would the world be in the dire straits it is in now?
if you were to disagree with me;
wouldn't that just be one more of life's ironies?

we all want to do the right thing.
yet it seems that whatever we do involves doing the wrong.
fairness for example.
what is fair?
how can a 200 dollar parking ticket fine be deemed as fair for someone who earns 100 a month and another that earns 10000 a month?
how do we judge something like that?
values conflict.
absolute principles may seem fine in heavenly abstract but right here on earth they engender clashes.
morality is hard to define.

okay im too free to be thinking about such stuff okay.
anyway i ordered THIS! (spend money again:( )
http://nutritionpark.com/healthfitness/showImage-Attachment.np?type=0&parentId=207&filename=ON_goldWheyProtein_choco.gif&thumbnail=false
yes its whey protein
and seriously speaking its just a supplement and i dont see whats de big deal about taking it.
cos apparently all it is is that people isolate the protein from whey and make it into powder.
and taking a few shakes is as good as eating tons of meat.
minus the fat.
plus the only bad thing except from farting alot and having bad breath is that taking too much of it will overwork your liver and kidney and you might end up having kidney stones.
also
taylor lautner and hugh jackman also got take protein-.-
okay why shld i be defending myself.

i dont know why its called "getting lost".
even when you turn down the whole street or alley,
when you find yourself at a dead end
or a road that turns to dust,
you're still somewhere,
its just not where you expected to be


stitched himself so neatly into the weave of her heart that letting him go would mean unraveling herself.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

dreaming out loud.

i am broke as broke can be!!!
though i have about 70 dollars in savings.
but that money is to start up my saving for a dslr.
so currently now in my wallet i have 15c to spend.
today i brought like more than 8 dollars out for training.
and i just realised i spent 8 dollars on drinks.
and drinks alone!!!
stupid one training also can spend so much money on fluids:(
ive decided to survive on plain water.
argh.

i cant believe im in the team for the boon lay cup.
but at least it feels good to be in the team.
and pretty much adds alot of confidence towards my basketball skills.
that im recognised!:D
but also i hate the stress and nervousness when theres competition.


Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know

Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time

Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you

Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you, yeah

daughtry rocks.
their songs are all great!:D
i mean his songs.


all i've got.

Friday, December 11, 2009

be a part of me

i havent no idea who reads my blog nowadays.
but i dont care.
just say what i want to say here.
also nobody else to say to what.
plus i "dont think its super cool to tell everybody what im doing."
LOL quote from peter chao.

not that we dont say anything.
but we must know where to draw de line.
to keep everyone from bitching about you la.

anyway today i went to gym and swim again but this time is at delta sports hall with leon and leslie and yujun.
its so much better to have people you know exercising with you la.
and then after that i went yujun's house to mahjong with wenxuan bryce and junming.
so fun:D
won four times:D
which is the most amongst everyone.
hehe and then played texas poker with mahjong tiles as chips.
its a wonder that im still awake even though i slept for less than 5 hours.
seems like a cup of coffee and two cans of redbull a day works:D
im not going to sleep earlier than 12 today also.
like i havent for the past week:(


ha this is so true about people nowadays.
and it isnt just about how cameras make us so obsessed with capturing the best shot even if it means insulting our humanity.
its also how the people in front of the cameras act
are what we see on the screen even true anymore?
whats behind the facade we see of people everyday?
or has it become second nature.

scary huh.

You can invent any fiction and call it a life;
I thought that if I did it often enough,
I might start to believe it.

Sometimes,
when you don't ask questions,
it's not because you are afraid that someone will lie in your face.

It's because you're afraid they'll tell you the truth.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

free to fall

heres how my day went.
i went out of house at 9.30
took train to JE mrt to meet the bballers.
ended up waiting till 10.40 cos there are always latecomers
den took train to QUEENSTOWN when our destination was queensway
cos apparently all of us missed the commonwealth stop=.=
den went there and bought new bball shoes
ate lunch
den took bus to harbourfront.
and from harbour took train to SENGKANG
for friendly match.
and it was 2pm.
but we started playing at 4pm=.=
cos the b division played first.
damn sian la travel so far also never play alot..
and i just got home only.
nevermind
at least i got out of house right!!!:D

so we are going to have a new principal.
and i think that is completely retarded.
cos its like everyone is talking about him
and its not in the good way!
i mean if you have such a bad history with students
den why still come to a new school
when everyone knows ALL the bad things about you and hate you=.=
you should just quit!!!
even my sister was talking bad about him too.
and worse
he's racist?
just commenting on what i saw over the internet,
how can someone who doesnt have any respect over the singapore policy of multi racialism can become one who heads a school?
aren't principals supposed to have role model principles?
oh yeah i forgot
nobody's perfect.
maybe thats why he is posted to a chinese school like RV.
if you get my drift.

THE FACEBOOK TRICK: press up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, b, a, enter key. Now, scroll up and down and magic circles will appear.


ooo cool.
im so suaku.
anyway facebook sucks also=.=

totally agree with him

err gym+swim tmr anyone?

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

heal the world.

omg damn funny.
nicky's videos are all damn funny!!
LOL.
here are somemore:D






and this too!

found this myself.
lol


haha entertained my boring day at home.

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

intracacies

i have a new life!
lol
nah doesnt count as new life.
but i sort of have new goals la.
and they include
me myself and i.
heee
happy happy.

i ate the KFC oriental chicken salad today.
and the dressing is just super salty.
which made me realise that it is to cancel out the bitterness of the vegetables.
which is kind of how this feels.
numbing myself to forget the pain.

nah just kidding.
i didnt finish the salad in the end anyway.



damn act cute!
lol.



and this one damn cool la!
watch 0:18
frigging cool!

haha credits nicky for giving me the links:D
LOL

know that history is indelible.
you can mask it;
you can patch it smooth and clear;
but you will always know what's hidden underneath

Saturday, December 05, 2009

what if

im too lazy to blog abt Qingdao la.
i just realised how much going to Qingdao felt so much like a dream
now im back,
everything just comes crashing back.
reality kicks in and suddenly i realised that nothing changed at all.
so right now i have about a little less than a month to rot.
i feel that theres nothing such as fate
that nothing is responsible for what happens to you but yourself.
its just whether you wanna do something about your future
maybe thats why i dont believe in god
dont believe in Confucius
dont believe he can make you pass your exams by praying to him.
because logically
he can't.
plus its stupid that a city cannot develop because none of its buildings can be taller den Confucius' temple.
so sad right.

okay i digressed.
where was i.
holidays
this holidays im gonna do what i wanna do
and what i wanna do only.
thats cause i sort of love being in control with my own life
sounds self centered but im used to this feeling
gives me a sense of satisfaction.
but right now i dont have any plans:D
maybe i wanna go out.
but ppl
i dont have any money.

i wanna get a DLSR
so im gonna start saving up for one.
1000 bucks i predict i am gonna take a year and alot of starving.
which i dont know how i am gonna take it
cos i eat alot in school:(
plus i dont just want a 1000 bucks one.
maybe the new EOS7D
ouch.
make that two years.

shall finish 牵牛花开的日子 first:D
TOTALLY ROCKS.



Don't speak
I can't believe
This is here, happening
Our situation isn't ri-ght
Get real, who you playing with?
I never thought he'd be like this
You were supose to be there by my side

When you say that you want me
I just don't believe it
Your always ready to give up
but never turn around

But what if i need you baby
would you even try to save me
or would you find some lame excuse
to never be true
What if i said i loved you
would you be the one to run to
or would you watch me walk away
without a fight

Im so sick of worrying
watcha gonna quit over anything
I could trip and you'd let go like that
And everything that we ever were
seems to fade but not the hurt
Cause you don't know the good things from the bad

When i say that i want you
you know that i mean it
and in my hour of weakness
there's still time to try

But what if i need you baby
would you even try to save me
or would you find some lame excuse
to never be true
What if i said i loved you
would you be the one to run to
or would you watch me walk away
without a fight

Everytime i speak
you try and stop me
cause every little thing i say is wrong
you say your noticing but you never see
this is who i really am
that you can't believe
makes me wanna know right now
if it's me you'll live without
or would you change your mind

What if i need you

But what if i need you baby
would you even try to save me
or would you find some lame excuse
to never be true
What if i said i loved you
would you be the one to run to
or would you watch me walk away
without a

Oh baby, What if i need you
(what if i need you?)
yeah yeah
(what if i need you?)
What if i need, what if i need you?
(what if i need you?)
Oh oh i need you
(what if i need you?)
i need you you you

i think it is a matter of love;
the more you love a memory,
the stronger and stranger it is.

Friday, December 04, 2009

back from qingdao!

i just got back from the airport:D
spent 9 days in China
Qingdao Jinan Qufu and Shanghai.
quite a fun experience i must say.
going out for 9 days without your parents
gotta be fun wad.
and the weather there rocks after you get used to it
which is like 3 days and 2 long johns everyday later.
talk about the fun part first.
the friends you make
the cold weather
the hotel bathtub
the late nights staying up and hanging out with the year 4s after midnight
the sightseeing
and the shopping of course
etc.
oh the booze too.

then de sucky parts.
the teachers are always on our heels
the food is always the same!!!!!!!
breakfast is hotel buffet
lunch is restaurant 10+ course meal
dinners is ALSO restaurant 10+ course meal
got tired of spinning the table and pouring the teapot by the 3rd day:D
hahaaa
also sucked was the fact that we had to go stupid places like museums and bore ourselves out.
and then write reflections every night
den have to heed by the lights out time
get teachers knocking on your door all the time
get scolded
blah.

actually it is quite okay la
except that we have to abide by the school rules
and the schedule.
we wake up like before 7am everyday!!!=.=
past that it is quite a fun trip to go to.
put me into a different place from that of singapore and i took abit of relaxation there
lots of things that we learnt
like how to slash prices the Chinese way.
i bought a pearl necklace that was priced 1480 yuan for 200 yuan only.
so friggin worth it.
although it was because got locals help us haggle la:D

i just started loading the pics into my comp.
so later.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

to how we used to be

qingdao on WEDNESDAY!!
lets hope its fun.
though it isnt fun now.
cos im only halfway done with packing.
boo.
have i told you how many times i hate packing!
now i'll tell you again.
I HATE PACKING!!

have this sudden urge to go and do alot of things.
but you know
im so tired:(

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I used to reach for you when
I got lost along the way.
I used to listen.
You always had just the right thing to say.
I used to follow you.
Never really cared where we would go,
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I look around me,
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had.

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around,
The only one around.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be? Yeah.
To how it used to be.
To how it used to be, yeah.
To how it used to be.
To how it used to be.

love this song loads.
can't get sick of hearing it:D

Friday, November 13, 2009

the kind of flawless i wish i could be

theres this very very nice show on TVBS
its called 牵牛花开的日子
i think.
its such a great show!!
so moving
so close to heart.
and so i catch it everyday:D

you know theres alot i wanna say
alot i wanna tell.
theres just so much of my life that i wanna share.
but i just dont find meaning in typing it here for everyone to see
it is as good as pointless:|
cause when i say it here
i dont get a reply back.
bleh.

now im thinking
what do i do from now to 25th nov?
and den from 3rd dec to jan?
what in the world am i gonna do to fill my time!?
this sucks
totally.



You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

where are you?
where did i lose you?

Thursday, November 12, 2009

now you're halfway out the door

dunno what to blog about
LOL.

anyway since alvin love songs
here's a great cover
Forever & Always by taylor swift
covered by i dunno who.
but its a nice song.
especially when its played with a piano.


Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me?

'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure

So here's everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, I don't think so

Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything

'cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always I don't think so yeah


speaking of taylor swift



lol

and
Taylor Swift Achieves 'Fearless' Feat at CMA Awards
"There was no upstaging Taylor Swift at the 43rd Annual CMA Awards in Nashville on Wednesday night. The 19-year-old singer/songwriter became the youngest-ever winner of the entertainer of the year award and captured four trophies in all."
"She also scored awards for best female vocalist, best album (Fearless) and best music video ("Love Story"), adding good-naturedly while accepting the vocalist award: "I want to thank every single person in this room tonight for not running up on the stage during this speech.""
"Co-hosts Brad Paisley and Carrie Underwood also poked fun at Taylor's encounter with Kanye West at the "2009 MTV Video Music Awards," singing: "Mamas don't let your babies grow up to be Kanye … because cowboys have manners, they don't interrupt.""
wahahaha.
taken from Entertainment Tonight

oh yes i remember sth!
she got those awards yesterday
November 11th
which is the exact same date she released her Fearless album last year
cool!

okay im too bored.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

fell in love without you

cant tuesday just come right now and go right away!
den we will all be free
its so weird to have the thought that
"no, technically exams aren't over"
sucks.

chinese sucks luh.
no idea why we have to spend ten years of education on it
spend money to take an examination
just to prove that yes
you are good at your mother tongue
you dont need to give a shit about it for the rest of your life.
its terrible.
we dont need it.
thing about language is
we cant prove one's capability in it through an exam paper.
plus
we spend almost all our time immersed in english!
i think in english all the time its abit tough to translate it to chinese and write it luh.
i predict that after i drop chinese
i will never ever write a single chinese word again:D

theres just so many things i want in life.
never thought i wanted you.


I opened my eyes last night and saw you in the low light
Walking down by the bay, on the shore,
Staring up at the planes that aren't there anymore.
I was feeling the night grow old and you were looking so cold
Like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began to shiver violently before
You happened to look and see the tunnels all around me,
Running into the dark underground,
All the subways around create a great sound
To my motion fatigue. Farewell
With your ear to a seashell
You can hear the waves in underwater caves
As if you actually were inside a saltwater room

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I've never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time

When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Can you believe that the crew has gone and wouldn't let me sign on?
All my islands have sunk in the deep,
So I can hardly relax or even oversleep
I feel as if I were home some nights,
When we count all the ship lights.
I guess I'll never know why sparrows love the snow
We'll turn off all of the lights and set this ballroom aglow

So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love
All the time

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I've never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
Only time, only time

When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Time together is just never quite enough,
When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?
What will it take to make or break this hint of love
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?

All the time

what will it take to make or break this hint of love.
tell me.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

love apple!!!!
check this out
http://www.apple.com/getamac/ads/
damn funny!!!
check out the previous years ones:D

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

vanilla twilight

i decided to start blogging again.
i hope this time i can last:D
cos im simply too bored at home luh.
or maybe its because that when you have nobody to share with
you have to find an outlet to say them out
or in this case
in prose.

have you ever woke up everyday with this pang of regret and guilt in your heart everyday?
and you drag yourself off the bed with this heavy heart
and wonder
'if i could only try again'
maybe things aren't that simple
maybe you cant try to take a basketball shot at the same spot at the same time and in the same circumstances for the second time.
maybe you cannot watch a live show the second time
cause all you can do is the record it down
and play it over and over again,
trying to get back the same feeling as it will be on live
yet it won't be.
but maybe,
if you believe
you can.

my favourite band of the week is Owl City
http://tapemixblog.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/owl_city_oceaneyes_1024x768.jpg
the songs are fantastic
the lyrics and the tempo too.
the electronic genre is damn nice to listen to when on the road
makes me feel alive.
the singer is Adam Young



The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

LOVE THIS SONG
fireflies IS SO OLD!
someone buy the album for me please!


Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains
And I'll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
Because your heart has a lack of color and we should've known
That we'd grow up sooner or later because we wasted all our free time alone
- Rainbow Veins, Owl City

Saturday, August 22, 2009

i was thinking
if i had o levels this year
i would be mugging like shit now.
haish.
perhaps IP program isnt that good at all.
nono
it ISNT good at all.
god knows how bad it will be to be stuck with the same old peeps for two more years.
that would be totally boring.
and i cant stand the type of life and atmosphere in this school already.

today's TKD training was scary!!!
i hate holding planks for people.
later they kick my hand how.
brrr the thought of it is scary la
put your hand there for ppl to kick.
sian.
tmr still have to hold for them.
nvm
next time is ppl hold for me liao!!!!
grading this nov!
senior black belt second dan!

Monday, August 17, 2009

dragonboat!

sorry for the lack of updates.
havent been able to go to blogger lately.
been busy.
hahahahaha.
if you know what my definition of busy is den.

i have decided to stop basketball!!!
and join dragonboat.
cos i see no more point in basketball anymore.
hahaha.
maybe the gym sessions.

anyways.
let CID be the hell of me.
OP on wednesday.
good game.
my slides are the results and analysis section.
and they dont make sense.
cos we got crap results.
so now i have to make sense out of crap results.
damn it.

Monday, August 10, 2009

new printer:D

my dad bought a 400 HP printer 0.0
crazy one.
not like we need fax scan print and copy all in one machine right.
LOL.
400 bucks leh.
printer buy 200 plus enough liao lor.
gimme i can buy so much more value.
hahahahaha maybe not.


there are tests next week
math geog lang arts and maybe chinese?
woahhhhhh
and i havent done my math revision yet.
so damn screwed.
and i still got a damned reflection to write for the stupid incident.
damn damn damn damn it!!!!!

how come everytime during long weekends i waste my time away?!
saturday it was tuition and bball at coach's house.
damn fun btw.and tiring.
then yesterday i tried to do abit of work.
but ended up going out with my sisters to the bookshop to get stuff.
den today......
jm and elton came to do CID.
and now im slack mode.
argh.
time to wake up!!!!

did i mention i wanted a DSLR?
now i'll say it
i want a DSLR!!!!!!!
any price!
a DLSR!
and maybe a Nintendo DS-i too.
hehehehehe.
mr gadget geek.

Friday, August 07, 2009

comparison

ndp celebrations today.
whee
so fun-.-
a complete waste of time I say.
spent like 45 mins standing on the field listening to a boring national day speech
rather two boring speeches.
and made to sing songs we actually rehearsed for the past week.
i hate the fact that we have to be forced to sing songs we dont wanna too
it defeats the purpose of us singing already.
there's no meaning to whatever we sing if you force us to right!
what to do.
dont sing also die ma.
but honestly
I never sang.

hahaha and after school released at 1030 everybody was meeting up and going out
and I didnt have anywhere to go!
so I procrastinated about going with nicky and zl and some other ppl for lunch
but I didnt.
so I went home.
before that dropping by to the aquariums.
gawd the crayfishes there are pretty!
damn.
if only I have money.

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

sometimes i wish i could save you

i mean
after this incident
it just made me less trustful of teachers.
because srsly speaking
when they dont wanna trust us
why should we be trusting them?
i dont see so.
we
okay I
get judged by them all the time.
if whatever you say and look like is a perfect representation of your character
then i guess we dont need judges anymore.
well i just feel judged all the time.
by so called "adults"
whom i seriously think they think they know better.
while they dont.
and never will.

still.
this shit has brought about pretty much unhappiness to alot of people.
i might look like i dont give a shit.
but what
it affected so many people how can it not to me.
dude almost the whole class actually knows that some shit it happening to us.
and what
it doesnt even make a good atmosphere at all.
we couldnt even hold our lessons properly cos the teachers and students were all about.

thinking about it
like my friend said.
who never watched such things that are rated at their age before
i cant say the same for those ppl whose childhoods are eons ago
but right now i believe thats the case.
you may not agree with me.
but hello
its my POV.
dont really need your comments nor critique.
save them to yourself.

and yeah i sort of felt that though a blog is public
its still quite privatized in a sense.
the fact that some of the shit we write here not everyone will be able to comprehend or understand,
and perhaps only our closest friends will understand
i'll consider that quite personal.
since the writer only wants to post for this certain group?
plus if the blog is anonymous and doesnt have a name.
and only the ones closest know whose blog it is
still pretty much okay.
like how this blog is.
though some may interpret some ideas in here wrongly,
that is why you cant blog stupid.
the ideas here are very general
and im not leading you to believe this nor that.
its up to your comprehension and interpretation
at your discretion.

the reason i write these stuff up?
at my discretion.

anyway.
today's training was slack.
people who wanted to join bball came for their first training today.
so it was slack.
and im happy to see yujun here too.
playing ball relieves much stress.
and theres nothing to stress about while you are playing ball.
cause you wont have to do a shit if you miss an open shot
commit a foul
or whatever mistake.
as long as you contribute on the next possession.
no one gives a shit.
its your game.

don't judge me,
you are only as puny as you think you are.

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

adults are just as human

you people might be seeing my name up on the noticeboard soon
and before you start asking me why and what hapened
I'll tell you
i feel that everyone here has the right to know
just as I have the absolute right to share.
and that you all can be the judge
cos I dont wanna let adults judge me.
as such I'll tell all my viewers what happened and
you can be the judge.

so what happened was that during the 4a chalet
I brought some DVDs to the chalet.
and they were Saw 1,2,3,4 and Lust Caution
all rated movies.
and some of us watched it
you might think its no big deal
but apparently not to some others
the teacher found out from my friends blog and decided to take action
and punish us.
ruining my peaceful life.
and shattering my perception of adults.
these are just facts.
no salt and pepper.

for the upteenth time I say this
all the stuff on this blog are just my comments
and if you feel offended you can always leave
don need to be so pathetic to as such visit this blog occasionally and hope that I flame someone
then catch me "red handed"cause for all you know you just might be doing just what I wanted
wanting viewers to read my blog
if someone says he's an anti feminist on his blog
does that mean that all the women in the world blame him for it?
its just he's view that he doesnt like women.
how can you change it?
is it right to do so?

anyways after this incident
I felt that we students who have a blog
can't blog freely.
we even have to regulate what we say.
we can't say we bought alchohol
we cat say we watched porn
we can't say we scolded fuck
we can't say this and that.
cos some viewers dont like that. and you end up punished.
like I said
its like digging your own grave.
who would love that?

plus I hate adults who think they are more superior than us teens
come on
adults are just as human as we are
doesnt mean you eat more rice
seen more of tv
lost your childhood
grow wrinkles
that you can start thinking that teens are people who need your guidance
this addiction to being right of adults just piss me off.
I won't be like this when I grow up.

so ppl.
lesson learnt
dont scream to the whole world that you did sth wrong.
or even write it up online.
the walls have ears.

I'm sure very soon ppl will be looking through my archives.
have fun.

Monday, August 03, 2009

i dont respect teachers.
in fact i despise some of them.
i'm not saying all teachers ya.
just that these 10 years i have been in the education system i have seen quite a plenty of teachers that are not worth my respect.
if the teachers do not respect their students
what are they worth the students respect?
i'll just diss them
oh yeah im not gonna name names because that would make me a retard.
so dont bother looking for names.

and yeah the teachers in my school have this ultimate knack for finding blogs.
im sure the links are pretty good and they have plenty of fun for clicking on links.
and reading them from head to toe.
wheee.
i had my experience before
wrote something unpleasant on this very blog about a teacher
and wow the teacher found out.
and i got a dressing down.
and aren't i proud of myself i have a teacher comment on my post before!
perhaps it was since then when i started hating teachers.
they dig and dig and dig to find all they know about students
and wonder when they became so smart.
hais even student's blogs also wanna read.
its like they have some kind of interest in knowing what we do in our lives.
i dun understand leh.
tell me why they must invade our "privacy" until like that
all i know is that teachers are paid to educate.
not be our babysitters when our parents arent there right?

and worst is
when teachers from SCHOOL start nosing into what we do OUTSIDE.
dude that pisses me off.
i mean its what i do on my own time and i dont see how it ties in with the school or anything.
not like im wearing my uniform buying vodka and whatever.
just doesnt make sense.
how come the school must give a damn about our lives outside of the compound.
hey i just fucking jaywalked in my uniform.

i mean its just ridiculous why teachers have to boss us around
i just dont like that.
unless you explain the reasoning for it.
i dont see why i have listen to them
get punished by them.
and worse is when they are all for no reasons.

and oh by the way.
these are all just my viewpoints
and its fine if you cant take them
you can always leave.
and yeah because these are my thoughts.
you cant fucking change them.

and who says this writer right here is the writer you think it is?
its the internet.
thats the way it is.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

wheeee

oh man oh man so tired!!!!!
my eyes hurt.
cause i was swimming without goggles and all that chlorine!!!
argh.
i want to sleep sia.
but have yet to finish my hw.
LOL though i dont really do hw la.

what a cool sunday afternoon lol.
first is yujun and ethel call me
ask me wanna buy some badge for their cip not
and they coming to find me
so i bo pian lor.
den went to meet them at clementi(made them walk to the bridge haha!)
and bought 3 badges
cos im nice:D
then when i was walking back home.
yujun called me and asked me whether wanna go some carnival thing at botak jones there.
i almost forgot about it!
LOL siqi told me on tues and i was like making it a point to go visit
so i went lor.
say hi to everybody i know.
gave them my badges to give away as prizes.
and shopped at the aquarium nearby.
got my phone confiscated!
got home take gym stuff
and got my phone back.

and then off to the gym and to the pool.
so guess how shag i am:|

"life's like a strand of pubic hair on a toilet bowl;
eventually somebody is going to come and piss you off."

so cool right the quote!!!
hahaha and how true alright!
my friend shared it with me:D

and i didnt blog yesterday cos i was almost out the whole day!
tuition and tkd.
and my sisters TREATED(hehe) me to a lunch of crayfish hor fun at chinatown!
ppl with cars are srsly very free i tell you.
so much crustaceans and seafood(prawn)
i was amazed my mouth didnt itch.
but i do hate allergies.


and i was learning this pattern yesterday!!
its amazing i finished learning it in like 30 mins.
hahahaha.
though its not what im going to do for my senior 2nd dan grading.
its better to learn ahead right
LOL.


thats vin diesel right? he rocks!
i can do that!!!
i really can!
ask any bballer.
hahahaha.
but not 15 la.
just about >5?
hehehe.
AND THIS IS SICK

Thursday, July 30, 2009

forever is over.

i must be mad.
cos i went to de gym again today.
argh!
tomorrow cca confirm muscle ache until die.
its terrible to train with a muscle ache i tell you.
damn.
i planned to gym for awhile only but i ended up staying for close to 2 hours!
grahhhh.
i went because i didnt wanna go out eat with de rest.
every thursday then got this kind of stuff one.
plus is different social groups of mine go out and eat
and i have to decide which to go to.
so i decided that i shall not entertain any and do my own stuff for once,
enjoying my freedom:D

Addicts are always running after something.
At first its the high.
Later it is just the attempt to feel normal.

become fascinated on the dark side,
like sunbathers who bath in the shadows.

-----------------------------------------
1 .PICK OUT A SCAR YOU HAVE, AND EXPLAIN HOW YOU GOT IT.
on my left leg. fell when cycling down a super steep slope for fun.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
pictures?

3. WHAT DOES YOUR PHONE LOOK LIKE?
oh dont ask. destroyed?

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
i have 1007 songs in my phone.

5. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE?
hmmm a mac default picture of grass? with droplets of dew on them. apparently taken with a damn good camera.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
this question sounds weird

7. WHAT TIME WERE YOU BORN?
about 1 am?

8. ARE YOUR PARENTS STILL TOGETHER?
together? thats loaded.

9. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
none atm. but i love love drunk by boys like girls.

10. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK?
quite.

11. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
forgot already.

12. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE SAME SEX?
black?

13. DO YOU LIKE PAINKILLERS?
when they are taken to do their part. yes.

14. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
both. hahaha.

15. FAVE PIZZA TOPPING?
cheese and CHEESE

16 IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
nothing.

17. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
hmmmmm

18. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
of course singapore education forces me to be bilingual

19. WHAT WAS THE LAST GIFT SOMEONE GAVE YOU?
OMG. i forgot it was too long ago.

20 DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
nope:D

21.ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
nope. micheal phelps is i know.

22. FAVORITE FRIEND?
:)nicky!

23. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
Lamborghini:D hahahaha

24. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
i dont understand.

25. SAY A NUMBER FROM 1-100.
101. im rebellious.

26. BLONDE OR BRUNETTE?
blonde!

27. WHAT IS THE ONE PHONE NUMBER THAT SHOWS UP ON YOUR PHONE THE MOST?
names la duh.

28. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
people with bad character

29. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF SINGAPORE(edit according to ur home country)?
duh-uh

30. YOUR WEAKNESS?
i guess it must b my height.

31. WHAT WAS THE LAST GIFT YOU GAVE?
i said i forgot!

32. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE HOLIDAY?
no fav.

33. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
how can i ever forget one. of course!

34. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE THIS?
fb-ing and chatting

35. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
dont ask me.

36. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
i'll cry! no. i'll go to jail. since its illegal

37 WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
nothing.

38. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
nope.

39. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
nope. not when you know that the stars are there to stay and wont change anything in your life. im practical.

40. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
wow. actually no. but i cant do shit about it.

41. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE VEGETABLE?
vegetable? thats a loose term. broccoli?

42. ANY BAD HABITS?
vulgarities/

43. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
i dont buy cds. hardly.

44. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
perhaps. if i like his/her face.

45. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
yeah. but it wasnt anything huge anws.

46. DO LOOKS MATTER?
nope. not at all.

47. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER?
play bball/pump iron/beat the crap out of someone

48. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
school?

49. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
not exactly.

50. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE?
hmmmm dont really have one.

51. ARE YOU AFRAID OF GROWING UP?
i guess so. kinda scary that im gonna leave education and leave these friends and stuff in a few more years. no more waking up early to go school, no more teachers no more hw no more free gyms. it has to be freaky.

52. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
of course!

53. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS?
nope!

54. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?
okok la

55. WHAT IS THE MOST PAIN YOU HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED?
fracturing my arm?

56. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
nope! too lazy alr plus you still need to tie it back the next day again!

57. LAST THING YOU SPILLED?
my protein shake. its sticky and its stuck on my com table.

58. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?
crayfish!:D

59. FAVOURITE COLOURS?
black.

60. WHAT'S THE LAST BOOK YOU READ?
angels and demons.

61. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
if they are so free like me.

62. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM VACATION?
go to space:)

63. LAST THING YOU ATE/DRANK?
ice milo:D

64. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
some friend of mum. just answered the house phone.

65. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
not really. depends on how you define love.

66. FAVOURITE DRINK?
soya bean/ milo

67. FAVOURITE ZODIAC SIGN?
no idea.

68. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SPORT?
basketball!

69. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOUR?
black:)

70. EYE COLOUR?
black too:D

71. TALL OR SHORT?
its average i swear.

72.SIBLINGS?
2 annoying sisters

73. FAVOURITE MONTH?
december

74. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
hell yeah!

75. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Lockdown on NGC

76. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
1/1

77. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
nope.

78, SUMMER OR WINTER?
winter

79. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
RELATIONSHIPS!

80. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
no idea

81. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
no idea too.

82. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
i guess and hope not?

83. BIGGEST FEAR(S)
to fail my EOY

84. LOUD OR QUIET?
loud

85. FAVORITE MOVIE?
eagle eye.

86. IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU MET SOMEONE WHO HAS CHANGED YOUR LIFE?
yep.

87. HAVE YOU EVER REJECTED SOMEONES CALL ON PURPOSE?
yes. for fun of course. remember i have two annoying sisters?

88. FACEBOOK OR MYSPACE?
fb

89 MORNING OR NIGHT?
night

90. DO YOU SPEND YOUR LIFE ON FACEBOOK?
nope! its supposed to be a social networking website but nobody is actually socialising on it!

91. DESCRIBE YOURSELF IN ONE WORD.


92. DREAM JOB?
havent thought of it yet

93. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTER-LIFE?
nope.

94. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF MARRIAGE?
a commitment. lifelong.

95. HAVE YOU DONE SOMETHING YOU REGRETTED IN THE PAST YEAR?
yeah.

96. IS THERE SOMEONE YOU WANT TO BE WITH RIGHT NOW?
nope. not anymore.

97. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
my cheekbones are ridiculously huge.

98. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WATCHED A MOVIE WITH?
classmates. lazy to name one.

99. WHAT WAS IT?
Transformers.

100. TAG 25 PEOPLE!
im not on fb.
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done!


we show our morals by practising them rather then preaching them.
no wonder everybody is immoral.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

i went to de gym today!!
with jb nicky and les.
apparently nicky was sick so he was there to slack only.
haha so many people falling ill lor.
i have two teachers that are on mc LOL.
eh no threee.
but ms tan still come today to take photo!
zzzzz.

i slept like at almost 1am yesterday!!
all thanks to the great CID.
received news that our data had came in and we had to draw tables and graphs on excel and give it to her in the morning.
so i stayed up to complete it.
with the help of my sis doing the graphs because i'm an excel noob!
at least we did de work
but still....
our cid is screwed up la.
just ask any member.
we have alot of missing data and stuff

Monday, July 27, 2009

i used to be love drunk.



Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven’t heard

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one sip would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We’re spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
But now I’m so broken that I can’t get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now its just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one sip would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab is everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one sip would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Now it’s over
I still taste it on my tongue

GREAT SONG!!!!
but if i can change the lyrics,
i'll change it to
"i used to be love drunk, but now i am sober":D
makes more sense.
haha.

love drunk no more.
not ever again.
but;
I still taste it on my tongue

Sunday, July 26, 2009

paralysed legs

my legs are like muscle ache like crazy now.
cos friday's training was crazy like siao.
coach made us jump like 80 times(no JOKE) with a 3 kg medicine ball in hand.
den another 60++++++++++++(apparently lost count) more times with a normal ball.
its real good training for a solid butt i tell you
damn i swear it beats any other gym session.
couldnt sit properly on a toilet bowl de next day.
and today,
even worse.
i went home on friday and slept for 12 hours.
wow i MISSed training.
not anymore LOL.

speaking of bball
i was saying i would quit bball if someone initiated a taekwondo club.
and i'll be there and be BOSS!!!
muhahaha.
i wish.
anyway speaking of tkd,
the best case scenario is that im going for my senior belt conversion in march.
and i'll be a senior 2nd dan by the end of the year:D
that would rock:D
but there's alot to do:|

and speaking of alot to do.
i have to complete my CID report already.
dang.
its damns screwed up.
we havent even gotten our results yet!
how to possibly write the results section?
nvm.
i'll just do what im in charged of.
which is areas for further improvements.
and i freaking terrible 6 lines in hours.
thanks to FACEBOOK and GAMES.
ARGHHHH!

speaking of facebook.
i found this quiz.

How much teachers hate me
Fill out each one you've done THIS school year.
When you're done multiply the number you got by three.

[ ] Gotten a referral
[ ] Gotten detention
[ ] Gotten your cell phone/ipod taken away
[ ] Gotten suspended
[x] Chewed gum/sweets during class
[ ] Got In School Suspension
TOTAL SO FAR = 1

[ ]Gotten late to a class more than 10 times
[X] Didn't do homework over 15 times
[X] Returned at least 2 projects in late.
TOTAL SO FAR = 3

[ ] Missed school cause you felt like it
[ ] Skipped class at least 1 time
[ ] Laughed so hard you got kicked out of class
TOTAL SO FAR = 3

[x] Texted people during class
[x] Passed notes
[x] Threw stuff across the room
[x] Laughed at the teacher
TOTAL SO FAR = 7

[x] Went on myspace, friendster, facebook , xanga , etc on the computer at school
[x] Took pictures during school hours
[x] Called people during school hours
[X] Listened to an ipod cd player/mp3 during class
[x] Hit a teacher or student with a textbook (just a textbook??!)
TOTAL SO FAR = 13

[ ] Threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the class room without permission
[X] Failed a class this year
[x] Ate food during class
TOTAL SO FAR= 16

[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved bad
[X] Didn't take your stuff to school
[ ] Gotten detention and didn't go
[ ] Used passes from other days/Or made fake pass
[X] yelled during class loud enough so the teacher could hear
TOTAL SO FAR = 18

[x] Slept during some of class
[X] Played basketball with paper balls using a trash can as a basket
[X] threatened a teacher
[ ] Felt hungry during class and went home to eat
[X] Treat the teacher as invisible
TOTAL = 21

now multiply the number by 3

63%! :D

SORRY TEACHERs.
i hate you as much as you hate me.

argh cant go gym today.
nvm i'll go tmr.
this week's upper back training!!
im gonna double my napfa 5 pullups to 10.
and i will.

time to complete my areas for improvement section.
and improve my production rate.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

还放不下我

at least the stress is over for awhile.
i swear that if these tests and stuff keep on coming,
i'll break.
seriously.
thank god its friday tmr:D

cca tmr!
i didnt go on tuesday.
so i hope i dont die tomorrow.
its been so long since i had training and im starting to miss it.
i guess its possible to miss something you dont really like.
hahaa well what to do bball is the only way to keep fit!

you know how sometimes you have a make decision
and one of which is something that you really wanna do.
well now i wished i didnt pick that choice.
guess it isnt always right to fight fate;
just like i have been all this long.

anyway
im on a tight budget nowadays
and i dont like to spend on things that are not worth anymore.
for the same reason i didnt wanna watch ice age 3D today.
after watching monsters vs aliens i felt that it was a waste of money already.
but i keep finding that i spend more than i need.
i gotta stop that spendthrift habit.
so now.
things i will only spend on are recess, drinks and gym.
cos the school gym is srsly pathetic.


sometimes i ask myself whats my motivation for going to the gym and pumping iron.

i just found the reason today.

dont believe everything happiness says.
i had to remind myself again.

Monday, July 20, 2009

again and again

i have decided, to revive this blog.

(and i am like what is wrong with blogger?!)

what caused me to revive it?
i also dunno,
probably out of boredom; and the fact that i was in the toilet thinking about it.
LOL.
anyway, i'm not telling anyone.
so if you happen to chance upon my url again and realise my blog is up and running,
do tag!!

anyway two months after i stopped blogging,
life hasn't changed much for me.
so not much to update.
i blog just to keep myself focused and organise my thoughts better.
not for any viewers and more importantly any of your views.
anyway two months passed,
ive matured, gained more muscle, got lazier, and have two new pet crayfish living in a small tank.
yeah i keep pets to entertain myself,
how pathetic.
but who cares since i suddenly am enlightened the meaning of being a free man.
i dont have to follow anyone's views or wants;
i can go anywhere and do anything i wan without considering the consequences or impacts that it might bring to anyone;
i can go gym whenever i want;
and spend my own money.
crudely put,
but you get what i mean.
if you don't thats your loss.

well i have come to realise that fact and yeah it takes quite alot of my chest.
though many shit is still stressing on me.
like the fact that im short of money nowadays.
yeah quite rare huh
LOL
but im serious cash tight now( if that is de right word to use)
and i have lots of issues about school that are tough to deal with i swear.
now i feel like going to school has no meaning at all.
only for bball and gym.
free gym so good.
i just went today with the other bballers.
hahaha.
and now i have a headache.
bad day to play bball and gym when you have a flu.

anws i find blogging unexciting.
just a way to kill time.
i need rest.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Back

it's the june holidays!
2k's chalet was great, with the night cycling and all.
bought a bottle of vodka for 64 bucks at cheers, ended up pouring some into the bbq pit. what a stunt.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

up agaisnt the wall

back from tkd.
i tell you now i sweat more than ever during tkd
cos i bought the new uniform that seniors wear
and its super thick and heavy.
and HUGE.
can fit two of my legs in one sleeve of the pants.
but its nice:D
and not cheap too
150 bucks.

okay and tomorrow is my grandmother's 1year death anniversary.
so i expect my house to be busy tomorrow.
and i hope i can do my studying and not be distracted.
cause i am today:|

chucky's on Channel 5!
so long since i watched Chucky already.
hahahahaha.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

nothing left to say.

lonest day ever.
songwei didnt come to school today cause he was sick.
and i think he passed it on to me yesterday.
so i got a mild headache and flu today.
anyway first is songwei didnt come
so i went to break alone.
then is my CID mates didnt come too.
so i went to play ball alone during CID.
so fun huh.
well anyway the strongest man is the one that stands alone.
isnt it?

played ball after school.
feels bad cos i should be doing hw and studying.
but who cares.
bball is life.
and we watched the netball play a friendly against some angmohs.
who were obviously so much better than them.
all so tall and fast.
anyway friendly is to learn from each other right.
hahahaha.
played till 6++
den my dad ps me and i had to go home myself too
alone.
yay.

when it reaches 10000 hits maybe i should close the blog already.
i shall.

dinner time.

可是那然后呢?

Sunday, April 19, 2009

nothing comes forever.

this blog is going down sooner or later.
because im gonna close it soon.
i dunno when.
but when i have the time to write a final post i will.
dont try to make me not close this blog.
because i want to close it.
and i will!
hahaha.

i just came home.
went to meet nicky at clementi mac cos he suddenly called me up and asked me for coffee.
so i went clementi central
talked for a bit.
then went to the aquarium shops to see if there are plants i could buy for cid
out of stock.
so we walked to cityvibe and he cut his hair there.
luckily he's quite satisfied with it.
if not he will confirm emo one.
but $8 dollar haircut who dont want right!!:D
hahahaha.
so now im home.
and the weather is damn warm.

see exactly why i dont wanna blog anymore.
why put your life up here for everyone to know.
grahhhhh.

Friday, April 17, 2009

I think I'm everything you hate

I didn't post yesterday!
and I wasn't planning to post today either cos I was too tired.
well anyway short post cause I'm on my phone.
and I haven't got much to blog about.

today is the last cca day till the end of MYEs!
so it was tiring and fun.
I dunno why coach loves to do strength training as if he didn't know we had gym yesterday.
which explains why I didn't blog cos I slept the moment I got home.
but the 5v5 was fun.
agaisnt a mix of yr 4&5s.
owning people along the way too!:D
hit a far far three pointer and felt great.
but we played until 6.40 and I had a bad cramp in between.
like OUCH.
CRAMPS SUCK BIG TIME.
anyway thank god my dad fetched me back or I'd have collapsed in rush hour human traffic.

and next week's gonna be soooooo fun.
yeah right.
first is my group members psing me for CID
leaving me to setup the second experiment ALONE.
MYSELF HELLO!!
grahhh.
and I have to buy the plants all over again.
and breed more mosquitoes.
I'd recommend you ppl to stay away from BIO LAB 2 as it is bee and mozzi infested for the next few months.
den next week's the 2nd last week till exams.
grahhh I'm feeling the pressure.
dont expect me to blog that much already.

meanwhile my body needs a rest.
I'm not gonna be able to walk tmr.
or lift my arms.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

but i will stand, a broken man


I want to scream until no sound comes out and you've learned your lesson
I want to swallow these pills to get to sleep
So I dont have to make a bad impression
I need to start to be myself
Because I'm sick of everybody else

I won't let you bring me down
It's here
And now I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me
I wanna take back all the shit that I have done
But I guess you were better off without me
I need to start to be myself
Because I'm sick of everybody else

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now
I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now
I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I won't let you bring me down (I took one big step and I looked away)
It's here and now I'm breaking out (and I thought of all the things that i wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate)
I will learn to love again (I took one big step and I looked away)
But i will stand a broken man (And I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late...)

boys like girls rock!!
nice songs they have.
listening to them everytime nowadays.
i get bored of songs pretty fast though.

and i had my haircut today!
it sucked because before i said anything the man already started cutting liao.
aiya whatever la.
dont care so much anyway.
not planning to cut already till holidays.

i think i wont be posting that much already.
cos when i blog
it means my comp is on.
and i will play games.
so i should stop blogging temporarily.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

memories; are supposed to fade.

im going to be a walking zombie by tmr.
i can hardly stand straight now.
let alone walk straight.
we ran 16(not actually 16) rounds in the super hot afternoon sun today!
and i almost melted!
the heat was like everywhere and you just couldnt stop sweating.
well that wasnt the worse part.
coach made us use the medicine balls which weigh 3kg and throw them up in the air.
i freaking hate gravity alright.
its like 10N/kg of force on you!
grahhhhhh.
i cant life my hands above my shoulder and i cant lift my knee above my waist.
but today's training was already not bad liaos.
as compared to worser ones:D
friday is the last training for the month!
after that means mugging.
stressed okay!
i hate this feeling.

tmr got syf for dance eldds and choir!
though i dont see the big deal except for the fact that the school spend HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of dollars on the performing arts.
and less than 10 thousand for sports.
which explains the immense need for a gold with honours.
but anyway goood luck people!!
its the pinnacle of your success so good luck and acheive it.
today during cid junming elton siqi they all were like forever talking about dance.
and i could see they were stressed!
hahahahaha.
so stressed they could joke about throwing the drums at the judges.
and the very POSSIBILITY of getting a COP.
but i bet when its all over it'd be great for them.
at least the school's money wouldnt go to waste.
and our principal would not be pissed cos the money flew away.
an example being seen in the band's syf performance.
okay i have no right to comment.

hahaha which reminds me of yithong kb-ing the band person.
cos we were running 100m dash.
and i think he stood in yt's way.
then yithong scolded him and even said sth about what they getting silver bla bla blah.
mean it sounds.
but when you're running at full speed would you love it to have someone get in your way.
whatever you think lar hor.
"basketballers are uncouth people" is the stereotype in your head anyway.
why should i bother to change it.

i need a break today!
yesterday have gym and today have cca.
only wednesdays can rest.
great.
we are all gonna live with muscle aches every day of the week.

and wow our defending national champions in bball lost to unity and only just won newtown by 1 point in the nationals!
west zone FTW!!:D

Monday, April 13, 2009

my everything; my everything.

yes!
first school day in 3 weeks that i wake up at 6++
and have a super fast car drive me to school:D
and get enough sleep in the night!
my dad is back from europe and he bought lots of chocolate!!!
cause he always buys chocolate when he goes overseas.
he bought three HUGE toblerones.
the huge one like 40 cm long and one piece could hardly fit in my mouth.
yum:D
but it gave me a bad throat today.
and i cant eat chocolate cos i have sensitive teeth and when it gets into my teeth it hurts like mad!:|

and today in english lesson ms chong was talking about how
women seem to have to always change for men.
and pengfei was taking it personally.
hahaha what you expect right.
shes a woman too so she'd think that way.
but i also dont agree that women change for men and men dont have to do anything at all.
however in actual fact,
now i wish i dont have to change for anyone anymore anyway.
but i like langarts discussions cos its fun and provoking.
hahahaha.

tmr cca is confirm die die!!!!
6.4km = 16 rounds around de track
seems like little.
but its damn tough alright.

http://kathreenglaiza.blogsome.com/wp-admin/images/thumb-banned.jpg

thats so cool right!
hahaha band-wades they are called.
cos this nba star started wearing it below his eye after it got scratched and didnt take it off.
and restarted another trend.
but now the NBA bans him from wearing it anymore!
so sad!
looks kinda cool:D

Sunday, April 12, 2009

2k chalet






some pics from 2k's class chalet last year.
will post more when i receive more next time.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

motivated,

back from tkd!
i spent the whole time teaching a newcomer basic stuff.
and the thing about teaching newcomers is that you have to talk alot.
well at least he followed my instructions.
its kinda a good feeling to see how your student improves through your teaching.
so i completed teaching him the first pattern of TKD
and in the process confusing myself for a while too.
LOL.
den after tkd our senior taught us some extra stuff
and talked about tkd stuff
and a super painful self defence technique
try me, shake my hand.

im going for my 2nd dan senior black grading in august!
which is quite a short period of time left to train cos there is alot of stuff to learn.
so im gonna train hard!
and acheive my goal.


disgusting dunk.

lots of homework to complete:|

Time, is going by, so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun, every single day
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day
I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day

Friday, April 10, 2009

this is the life.

i topped up my card yesterday to 5 dollars.
now im left with less than 3 dollars in my card.
which means i spent close to 2 dollars on travelling today!
on a student concession ticket hello.

left home at 11.30 am to go vivo and met pearlyn.
then went to dhoby ghaut at around 1.30 and waited for the rest of my class(clique) to reach.
and wow its amazing how 6 ppl from different places can be actually late for more than an hour.
totally amazing.
ended up meeting at 2.30
when the actual time to meet was 1.
went to plaza sing cinema to see what movies were up.
thought that maybe the cathay would have better choices.
walked to cathay in the rain.
to find out that the movie times were worse.
and had to walk back in a even bigger rain.
in the end caught fast and furious 4 IN THE FRONT ROW.
like FRONT ROWhello!
luckily we switched to the 2 and 3rd rows were there was no one if not my neck would be aching now.
sat on the second row extreme left(which wasnt comfortable for the neck either)
and finished the show.
and i was broke like never before.
hardly had any money left.

despite that
i went to LOT 1 after FF4 to catch ANOTHER movie with nicky zilie shaowei jaslyn bla bla
ppl whom i dont always hang out with.
nicky lent me 20 dollars(not the other way round)
and we watched the nc16 movie shijuku incident
jackie chan!
who didnt fight like he always does.
even jaslyn is 16 la!
i was the only one not 16 there and the person checked her ic luckily.
cos she was like the youngest looking there already.
so she pass everybody pass.
hahaha.
the movie was cool and gory at the same time.
about japanese mafias and everything.
nc16 part is where the hands got chopped off.
totally cool and gory.
but its weird seeing jackie chan not fighting like a hero though.
sad ending!:(
he died.
boo.

then apparently the rest of them actually wanted to go alfreda's house to play mahjong.
den realised it was late and procrastinated cos some had to go home early.
and i watched them trying to persuade and everything.
finding the best solution like how to make alfreda not pissed if they didnt go.
or find ppl so got enough to play mahjong.
say until me-.-
not like i can go or even play mahjong luh!
my dad is coming back from paris tmr 7am:|
no more early mornings going school myself.
coming back late and every thing!
but also no more outings:|
anyways all of them went to alfreda's house to show face.
hahahahaha.

and they were talking about this incident they came across when they went to de halloween chalet last year!
brrrr scary luh.
they went to OCH(old changi hospital) to explore in the night.
den apparently someone could see stuff
den saw this (person) following one of them
because she was wearing an RV uniform.
which apparently looks like a nurse's uniform?
grahhhh so they went out.
and it creeped me out cos i was wearing a totally white shirt and the way home was really dark and creepy.
hahaha scaring myself.
but still scary.

time to work hard for exams already.
no more playing!