sometimes i wish i could save you

i mean
after this incident
it just made me less trustful of teachers.
because srsly speaking
when they dont wanna trust us
why should we be trusting them?
i dont see so.
we
okay I
get judged by them all the time.
if whatever you say and look like is a perfect representation of your character
then i guess we dont need judges anymore.
well i just feel judged all the time.
by so called "adults"
whom i seriously think they think they know better.
while they dont.
and never will.

still.
this shit has brought about pretty much unhappiness to alot of people.
i might look like i dont give a shit.
but what
it affected so many people how can it not to me.
dude almost the whole class actually knows that some shit it happening to us.
and what
it doesnt even make a good atmosphere at all.
we couldnt even hold our lessons properly cos the teachers and students were all about.

thinking about it
like my friend said.
who never watched such things that are rated at their age before
i cant say the same for those ppl whose childhoods are eons ago
but right now i believe thats the case.
you may not agree with me.
but hello
its my POV.
dont really need your comments nor critique.
save them to yourself.

and yeah i sort of felt that though a blog is public
its still quite privatized in a sense.
the fact that some of the shit we write here not everyone will be able to comprehend or understand,
and perhaps only our closest friends will understand
i'll consider that quite personal.
since the writer only wants to post for this certain group?
plus if the blog is anonymous and doesnt have a name.
and only the ones closest know whose blog it is
still pretty much okay.
like how this blog is.
though some may interpret some ideas in here wrongly,
that is why you cant blog stupid.
the ideas here are very general
and im not leading you to believe this nor that.
its up to your comprehension and interpretation
at your discretion.

the reason i write these stuff up?
at my discretion.

anyway.
today's training was slack.
people who wanted to join bball came for their first training today.
so it was slack.
and im happy to see yujun here too.
playing ball relieves much stress.
and theres nothing to stress about while you are playing ball.
cause you wont have to do a shit if you miss an open shot
commit a foul
or whatever mistake.
as long as you contribute on the next possession.
no one gives a shit.
its your game.

don't judge me,
you are only as puny as you think you are.