take a look at me

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
is it half empty of our wins or have i ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
but look through that
and you will see,
I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
amazed how I somehow managed to
sweep you off your feet girl,
your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do.
But I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,
it's putting up the fight,
and I've got this feeling,
that everything's alright,
and don't you see,
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone,


songs,
my only consolation.

putting the best foot forward

for the third time im deleting every thing i wrote
i decided to write about today.

today's pe was fun fun fun
and tiring
ms loo let us play a guys vs guys game
and yay it was exciting
after playing weeks of lousy touch rugby we finally could play some quality ball
hahas.
but after the pe everybody was completely tired and weak!
i almost fell asleep in class tons of time.
but at least dora lee's lesson woke me up a little
she was quite interesting today
hahas
i think her lesson's the most fun one.
amongst all.


life is like toilet paper, long and useful; even to the end.

everything will come into view if you take a step back.

in school, you're taught a lesson, then tested; in life, you're put to a test which teaches you a lesson.

make sure your life is a movie worth watching.

the most important things in life aren't things.

life isn't measured by the breaths we take, but the moments that take our breath away.

look at life through the windshield, not the rear-view window.

life is like writing a story without a eraser.

life doesn't end with just a fullstop, it contains much more in between.

life is just a mirror, what you see out there, you must first see inside of you.

life is about accepting.

life is like holding a snowflake, it disappears fast.

the best moments in life are those that make you happy.

life is this.
simple, yet incomprehensible.


VINDICATED.
i hope i will be.

don't wait

The sky glows
I see it shining when my eyes close
I hear your warnings but we both know
I'm gonna look at it again

Don't wait, Don't wait
The road is now a sudden sea
And suddenly, you're deep enough
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down

You get one look
I'll show you something that the knife took.
A bit too early for my own good
Now let's not speak of it again

Don't wait, Don't wait
The road is now a sudden sea
And suddenly, you're deep enough
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down

Don't wait, Don't wait
The lights will flash and fade away
The days will pass you by
Don't wait
To lay your armor down [x5]


great song!

what matters most.

today was my cousin's wedding registration
at Aranda Country Club
haha
yes its a chalet
but who says we cant have wedding registrations there?
LOL
so i practically wasted my morning and afternoon taking pics and entertaining my sisters and cousins
so i am supposed to make up for lost time now!!
but this matters more.
back to the topic
de ceremony was just like any other you see on tv luh
just that you dont get to see it from different views at a time
and that the "yes i do!" doesnt sound that dramatic
nevertheless
its an important ceremony huh
i guess it really holds alot of responsibility to marry somebody
to love and to faithful
as the vows exchanged stated so
at first i thought they were just words!
plain words
then again they are promises
but what's the use of making empty promises right?
actions speak louder than words they say
words are secondary.
sometimes they are just there to fill the lonely silence.

i wanted to put the photos i took today
but i cant find my camera
haha
cant be bothered to find where i placed it.
and even if i do theres no battery
must charge before i can upload
so some other day!

i spent the past hour writing de chem cheatsheet
yea cheatsheet
its what university students call it
you get a piece of paper
and you get to write whatever you deem fit on the paper
whatever you think will help you pass
all fits onto one piece of paper
and i already did till chemical bonding and structure only
in less than half page!!
its excruciating man
how can you expect someone like me to write very small yet comprehensible!!??
its totally unfair

EOYs are coming!!!!!!!!
i cant help think about all the fun i'll have after EOY
everything will become paradise!!
no more stress!!
but the pile of books in front of me squashes me back to reality
its not over.
YET!

i just realised how our lives revolve around words that much.

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.

im here to fill in de blank again.

today ms tan hui zhen took our 40 min pe lesson
and plus her 40 min proper lesson
so during school hours we had a 1 hr 20 min physics lesson
then after school hours
another 3 HOURS!!!
and i just got home
i didnt know how i got through the 3 hours
haha
but she let us eat
so i was practically eating chips right in front of her
and she looked at me
and didnt give a damn!
hahasss.

went to vivo yesterday
to help my sis get some haivianas for herself and myself
haha it looks so girlish.
spent 116.70 on those slippers-.-
and yet to return me my money!
den i went to eat something
something normal in a classy place
haha
it was not bad
just a little expensive on the beverage side
after which i got a nice nice pencilcase for songwei
because his present pencilcase looks entirely retarded for him.
hees.
so be grateful my friend
i remembered you.


you make me forget my iPod.

The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

secondhand serenade - "don't wait"

my mum printed something about my birthday from i dunno where

apparently she had nothing better to do 

its like showing the days, month, weeks, seconds i am alive

and the characteristics of the people born in May i suppose

here goes.

3-May-1993

age in years : 15.39

age in months : 185

age in hours : 134847

age in minutes : 8090835

age in seconds : 485480073

age in milliseconds : 48575007279

age in weeks : 39330

born on : Monday

Characteristics.

• stubborn and hard hearted
• strongwilled and highly motivated
• sharp thoughts
• easily angered
• attracts others and loves attention
• deep feelings
• beautiful physically and mentally
• firm standpoint
• easily influenced
• needs no motivation
• easily consoled
• systematic
• loves to dream
• strong clairvoyance
• understanding
• good imagination
• good debating skills
• good physical
• weak breathing
• loves lit and the arts
• loves travelling
• high spirited
• spendthrift

haha

that looks alot like me leh

except some points

but then again i realised it also looks like de traits you find in a Taurus.

right?

let's try again.

yeah finally i got these pics up le
haha

today was warm warm WARM like siao!!!
i hate my seat can
so far from the fan
and so near de window
but there's no wind!!
hot air maybe=(
practically sweating it out in class
and i kept complaining about the heat
and apparently my DAO tablemate felt otherwise
so warm want to sleep also cannot...

my dad's going to watch F1!!
not fair
his company so good give them tickets to watch-.-
i think his company gives him too many privileges
and the tickets cost 1400 bucks i think
and it comes complete with ear plugs
haha
and i think he sits somewhere around the turn number 1
which means its near the start?
hmph



Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

i'm sorry. i can't be perfect

1. You decide to die. How do you do it?
i don't know. depends.

2. It's FREE KILL DAY, who's your first target? 
i would't kill anyone. you know i won't

3. How old are you?
fifteen going on sixteen.

4. Why did you answer this survey?
because i was so bored and just to spend more time with my iMac i did.

5. Whats your favorite soccer team?
maybe Arsenal

6. Snowboarding or surfing?
snowboarding sounds more appealing.

7. Would you rather date a girl/boy drummer or a vocalist?
drummer!! drums are cool shit.

8. Do you believe in happy endings?
definitely so.

9. Whats your religion?
Freethinker.

10. Do you want to be gay/lesbian?
heh. despise them. 

11. Would you rather date a varsitarian or a band member?
would a normal person do??

13. Whats the first thing that comes to your mind when you hear "love"?
you?

14. How do you think of EMO kids?
pathetic lowlifes?

15. Have you ever been a victim of gossip?
i bet i surely have. lol

16. Whats your very first memory of the rain?
wah. i think de thunder comes first.

17. Whats the craziest thing youve done/ happened to you lately?
craziest? define that. somebody answer this for me.

18. Do you honestly believe in love at first sight?
no. but maybe love on a second glance

19. Ever did something scandalous and blamed it on alcohol?
nah. never been drunk. 

20. The person who knows the most of your secrets?
myself? secrets are meant to be kept you know. i dont just share them.

21. Are you happy with the person you're currently dating?
as long as the other person is happy, everyone is.

22. Given that you have money, have the perfect job and live independently, would you consider starting a family with the person your currently dating?
ooooohhhhh. NO.

23. Ever fell in love with an ugly person and denied it?
denied it? well. no.

24. Best birthday gift?
perhaps de Bakerzin cheesecake? thanks people!!

25. The best place in the world?
definitely not right here right now.

i took this from grace's blog!

oops i almost wanted to link it

haha

yay new comp!!!!

yay!!!!

i finally bought a new desktop

gawd this screen is so high my neck is aching from looking up-.-

but still

COOL MANNN!!!

iMac is so cool

haha

total cost: $2800

quite cheap i must say

with both MAC OS installed and windows OS

and microsoft word too

and parallels software too!

but this screen is gonna take some time getting used to

and yeah!!!

tangible keyboard after more than 2 weeks of thumping on my phone's screen

heees

why did it suffice to me?

today's physics test was easier than expected
but still little time
no time for me to check my work
i dunno why the physics tests are always so damn hard
makes everyone afraid of physics tests.

tuesday we got scolded by ms ek
for talking so much during assembly
though i personally think it wasnt our class
but still
it wasnt just a scolding that's all
it also tarnished the 3A goody reputation a little
and mr tan later scolded us
it was totally uncalled for la
srsly it wasnt us who talked
at least not me maybe
but he had to say as if we murdered somebody
when it was just a minor thing!!
3A has to be 3A
when he said: we should behave like how...
i wanted to say: like how a 3A ought to behave
but i didnt
but isnt that what every teacher expects us to be?
a 3A?

and today ms tan did something stupid
physics test 40 min
and she wrote this

-.-

i wanna get my senior 2nd dan quick!!!!
hahas.

i dunno how to start mugging.

eoys are coming up soon
but I haven started on my revision
got a million piles of papers to sort and file
den can get down to revising
when do I start???
how do I start??
eoys aren't de first thing on my mind now.

I really dunno what to post today
there's like nothing really to talk about
I'm really starting to hate talking to myself here-.-
hahas
sometimes its reflective
but otherwise its just boring.

Oh yes I might be getting my 20 inch iMac next week
yay.
finally a proper keyboard I can type on
efficient msning and blogging
unlike this irritating and tedious task that's making my thumbs numb
and I can redownload my gigabytes of songs movies and games
I so need a computer now.

I like songs that tell stories
songs that making you feel as if a fairy tale is unfolding
songs that are so close to my heart
songs that expresses how I feel
and I think secondhand serenade does that pretty well
songs that make you feel as if they were talking about your condition now.

As Lovers Go - Dashboard Confessional

stolen

We watch the season
Pull up it’s own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only
Grand Farewells
Crush the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the ball room floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
Sleep Well

Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well

you have stolen
you have stolen
you have stolen my heart

Watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
We
All
Look
Like
We
Feel


you have stolen my
you have stolen my
you have stolen my heart

how?

I tried so hard
I actually listened so attentively today in class
but I couldn't help it when my attention wavered
just so couldn't
that's why I played bball
it makes me forget
for that period of time
but then
when I stop again
the truth comes rushing back.

trust is something that only can be build up once
take the trust fall at OBS for example
imagine if you saw one person got injured badly because they dropped him
den would you go up there and do it?
would you trust that they will catch you?
some things just cannot go back to what it was previously
no matter what
there's always the unadvoidable scar.

I looked into her eyes and it said.

It's Not Over - Secondhand Serenade

but it's over, it's over, why is it over?
we had the chance to make it
now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish I had the chance to take it back
but its over.

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
it's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
and throw away the life I led
but I won't let it die, but I won't let it die.

You turned my world just upside down

first day of school
super tired
didn't sleep well at all last night
slept late woke early
and the hw had to be handed up
some I didn't complete
like the stupid Chinese compo
haish.
I want a good nights sleep!!
but now I have to do the bloody compo
geesh

I wan a new desktop!!!!!!
this is killing me
my thumbs hurt from hitting my phone screen that often
arghh.
and all my games movies and music are gone!!!
die lar
impossible to recover them de!!
Its like losing somebody once
its totally impossible to get the person back whole
and no
I dont understand why.

I want to shout it out loudI want to tell you how much I doI want to know whats in your head
I can't concentrate
you turned my world just upside down.
and around.

Laugh or cry

testing testing.
I'm blogging with my phone!!
hopefully this gets posted up.

This holidays flew passed so quickly
too quickly in fact
I have so many undone homework
And so many bad things happen
Comp crashed
rainy cca days
lowest attendnce of ppl on Friday
and many more.
Den again bad things happen so that we know what good things are supposed to feel like
but again
good things happened too.

I kept saying that I couldn't I couldn't trust
but when I was put to the test
I realised the cold hard truth
I dunno whether to smile or cry
to be happy about it or not
I hope I am.

actions don't speak louder than words!!
actions talk.
words don't.
please talk.
Its agonising as it is.