inkling of inspiration?

So, I am suddenly tempted to blog again. I wonder why that is and I attribute it to the course that I am currently attending. It has set my gears churning for quite a bit, I'm still not quite sure how, but it sure is more effective that working all day at station. After all, since after the As I haven't been doing much thinking or working my brain to even half of its capacity, suffice to say its limits. Probably the most thinking I have been doing is probably the interviews and tests for the acceptance into NUS law/med/SMU law courses. That being said, it still wasn't as hectic or half as stressful as the A Levels. 

Right now life is a comfortable breeze, like being in a dinghy in an ocean of gentle waves, being pushed along as time goes by and just waiting. And then sooner or later you just realise that you are too comfortable, not like what life was previously. You start wondering why you are in the middle of a vast, mundane world. You start feeling lost. You ache for land again. That's when you don't want to keep floating in limbo, or so to speak. Right now that is kind of how I feel. I want to start swimming to shore, to whatever is in the future and work for it. Maybe it is too early; maybe this is the time for a break, for a hiatus. But I cannot bear to see my own brain turn to rot, left to fester in a still ocean swarmed with flies. I guess that is what happens to one when he becomes just another follower in life. Might not make a whole lot of sense but yet a follower to me is the epitome of passivity. Being passive is a sin. Thou shalt not be passive. Thou shalt start now.

Back to the point about the course. It is a two day course for civil service staff (obviously since its held at Civil Service Club) titled "The MBTI Approach to Working More Effectively With People". Sure sounds like its for people who lack social skills/communication techniques, at least that was what I thought when I received the email. I questioned the need for it. I am not that much of a "self help" or a "motivational speech" kind of person. The need for such tools/contraptions confuse me; why some people are so unsure of themselves to require someone else to tell them who they are, or what they should be. But after the first day today, I realised this course is so much more. It does not tell you who you should or should not be, but rather it encourages you to be who you are, and to develop it to a greater extent. Consequently, it makes one more confident about themselves, more willing to be optimistic about thyself. Also, I never thought well of such psychological profiling to be useful, rather more of a "good to know" basis. Perhaps I should add that MBTI is basically just an indicator for one to use, in order to determine what kind of personality you are. Then I became cognizant of the fact that such an indicator helps you observe people better, what kind of people you work with, interact with, live with. Makes the world much more interesting no? Sure, you can put it crudely as "judging" someone. But who doesn't? Who doesn't in their own head decide if someone they just met is happy/sad, leader/follower, introvert/extrovert or even stupid/clever? And being more aware of their types, makes working with them easier for sure. In related news, given that the course costs 400 plus dollars and SPF gets me there for free; plus I don't have to do work for these two days, of course I'd rather be at CSC.

Some random musings I had today: 
So far I've forgotten them all. 
Damn I'm getting old.

Note to self: change this blog skin and probably make it more word-friendly (yes, there's gonna be a lot more of that). Ooops that was a word to self about a note to self.

HAPPY 13th Monthsary!

what better way to wish you a Happy 13th Monthsary than on the world wide web? so here it goes baby :

HAPPY 13TH

LUNAVERSARY/LUNIVERSARY/
MONTHIVERSARY/MONTHAVERSARY

MY DEAR LURBVEZCXZCZXCZCZXXCZ :D

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! :) 13th months. some people think after the first year you shouldn't be keeping track of the months that pass by, but the many more years to come? but we don't agree right! every month should serve a constant reminder for whatever we've got : each other. actually everyday is a constant reminder of how happy I am to have you in my life. the butterflies in my stomach, the sweaty palms, the endearing touches and loving words I've had the fortune to experience in these 13 months. its just different to have someone in your life to share everything with, and you know I would definitely share everything with you~ its been an awesome time together and I'm hoping to set more milestones, uncover more adventures and hideouts with you. so many places to go, so much things to do, all of which I will never do if I wasn't here with you right now.

Sometimes loving someone means throwing yourself into the fray, the insecurity, the trust that's needed is immense and when trouble rises we may start blaming each other for mistakes we had made. but what I've learnt from you is that to forgive others and more importantly to forsake yourself is a wonderful thing. when things whirl out of control, we just have to take a step back, let the hurricane within our hearts blow out. when they say the calm comes before the storm, they left out the part about when the storm withers and dies, the calm is immense.

"Nobody's life is filled with perfect little moments. And if it were, they wouldn't be perfect little moments. They would just be normal. How would you ever know happiness if you never experienced downs?" - Cecilia Ahern

P.S. i need to work on my writing ;(