up agaisnt the wall

back from tkd.
i tell you now i sweat more than ever during tkd
cos i bought the new uniform that seniors wear
and its super thick and heavy.
and HUGE.
can fit two of my legs in one sleeve of the pants.
but its nice:D
and not cheap too
150 bucks.

okay and tomorrow is my grandmother's 1year death anniversary.
so i expect my house to be busy tomorrow.
and i hope i can do my studying and not be distracted.
cause i am today:|

chucky's on Channel 5!
so long since i watched Chucky already.
hahahahaha.

nothing left to say.

lonest day ever.
songwei didnt come to school today cause he was sick.
and i think he passed it on to me yesterday.
so i got a mild headache and flu today.
anyway first is songwei didnt come
so i went to break alone.
then is my CID mates didnt come too.
so i went to play ball alone during CID.
so fun huh.
well anyway the strongest man is the one that stands alone.
isnt it?

played ball after school.
feels bad cos i should be doing hw and studying.
but who cares.
bball is life.
and we watched the netball play a friendly against some angmohs.
who were obviously so much better than them.
all so tall and fast.
anyway friendly is to learn from each other right.
hahahaha.
played till 6++
den my dad ps me and i had to go home myself too
alone.
yay.

when it reaches 10000 hits maybe i should close the blog already.
i shall.

dinner time.

可是那然后呢？

nothing comes forever.

this blog is going down sooner or later.
because im gonna close it soon.
i dunno when.
but when i have the time to write a final post i will.
dont try to make me not close this blog.
because i want to close it.
and i will!
hahaha.

i just came home.
went to meet nicky at clementi mac cos he suddenly called me up and asked me for coffee.
so i went clementi central
talked for a bit.
then went to the aquarium shops to see if there are plants i could buy for cid
out of stock.
so we walked to cityvibe and he cut his hair there.
luckily he's quite satisfied with it.
if not he will confirm emo one.
but $8 dollar haircut who dont want right!!:D
hahahaha.
so now im home.
and the weather is damn warm.

see exactly why i dont wanna blog anymore.
why put your life up here for everyone to know.
grahhhhh.

I think I'm everything you hate

I didn't post yesterday!
and I wasn't planning to post today either cos I was too tired.
well anyway short post cause I'm on my phone.
and I haven't got much to blog about.

today is the last cca day till the end of MYEs!
so it was tiring and fun.
I dunno why coach loves to do strength training as if he didn't know we had gym yesterday.
which explains why I didn't blog cos I slept the moment I got home.
but the 5v5 was fun.
agaisnt a mix of yr 4&5s.
owning people along the way too!:D
hit a far far three pointer and felt great.
but we played until 6.40 and I had a bad cramp in between.
like OUCH.
CRAMPS SUCK BIG TIME.
anyway thank god my dad fetched me back or I'd have collapsed in rush hour human traffic.

and next week's gonna be soooooo fun.
yeah right.
first is my group members psing me for CID
leaving me to setup the second experiment ALONE.
MYSELF HELLO!!
grahhh.
and I have to buy the plants all over again.
and breed more mosquitoes.
I'd recommend you ppl to stay away from BIO LAB 2 as it is bee and mozzi infested for the next few months.
den next week's the 2nd last week till exams.
grahhh I'm feeling the pressure.
dont expect me to blog that much already.

meanwhile my body needs a rest.
I'm not gonna be able to walk tmr.
or lift my arms.

but i will stand, a broken man

I want to scream until no sound comes out and you've learned your lesson
I want to swallow these pills to get to sleep
So I dont have to make a bad impression
I need to start to be myself
Because I'm sick of everybody else

I won't let you bring me down
It's here
And now I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me
I wanna take back all the shit that I have done
But I guess you were better off without me
I need to start to be myself
Because I'm sick of everybody else

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now
I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now
I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I won't let you bring me down (I took one big step and I looked away)
It's here and now I'm breaking out (and I thought of all the things that i wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate)
I will learn to love again (I took one big step and I looked away)
But i will stand a broken man (And I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late...)

boys like girls rock!!
nice songs they have.
listening to them everytime nowadays.
i get bored of songs pretty fast though.

and i had my haircut today!
it sucked because before i said anything the man already started cutting liao.
aiya whatever la.
dont care so much anyway.
not planning to cut already till holidays.

i think i wont be posting that much already.
cos when i blog
it means my comp is on.
and i will play games.
so i should stop blogging temporarily.

memories; are supposed to fade.

im going to be a walking zombie by tmr.
i can hardly stand straight now.
let alone walk straight.
we ran 16(not actually 16) rounds in the super hot afternoon sun today!
and i almost melted!
the heat was like everywhere and you just couldnt stop sweating.
well that wasnt the worse part.
coach made us use the medicine balls which weigh 3kg and throw them up in the air.
i freaking hate gravity alright.
its like 10N/kg of force on you!
grahhhhhh.
i cant life my hands above my shoulder and i cant lift my knee above my waist.
but today's training was already not bad liaos.
as compared to worser ones:D
friday is the last training for the month!
after that means mugging.
stressed okay!
i hate this feeling.

tmr got syf for dance eldds and choir!
though i dont see the big deal except for the fact that the school spend HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of dollars on the performing arts.
and less than 10 thousand for sports.
which explains the immense need for a gold with honours.
but anyway goood luck people!!
its the pinnacle of your success so good luck and acheive it.
today during cid junming elton siqi they all were like forever talking about dance.
and i could see they were stressed!
hahahahaha.
so stressed they could joke about throwing the drums at the judges.
and the very POSSIBILITY of getting a COP.
but i bet when its all over it'd be great for them.
at least the school's money wouldnt go to waste.
and our principal would not be pissed cos the money flew away.
an example being seen in the band's syf performance.
okay i have no right to comment.

hahaha which reminds me of yithong kb-ing the band person.
cos we were running 100m dash.
and i think he stood in yt's way.
then yithong scolded him and even said sth about what they getting silver bla bla blah.
mean it sounds.
but when you're running at full speed would you love it to have someone get in your way.
whatever you think lar hor.
"basketballers are uncouth people" is the stereotype in your head anyway.
why should i bother to change it.

i need a break today!
yesterday have gym and today have cca.
only wednesdays can rest.
great.
we are all gonna live with muscle aches every day of the week.

and wow our defending national champions in bball lost to unity and only just won newtown by 1 point in the nationals!
west zone FTW!!:D

my everything; my everything.

yes!
first school day in 3 weeks that i wake up at 6++
and have a super fast car drive me to school:D
and get enough sleep in the night!
my dad is back from europe and he bought lots of chocolate!!!
cause he always buys chocolate when he goes overseas.
he bought three HUGE toblerones.
the huge one like 40 cm long and one piece could hardly fit in my mouth.
yum:D
but it gave me a bad throat today.
and i cant eat chocolate cos i have sensitive teeth and when it gets into my teeth it hurts like mad!:|

and today in english lesson ms chong was talking about how
women seem to have to always change for men.
and pengfei was taking it personally.
hahaha what you expect right.
shes a woman too so she'd think that way.
but i also dont agree that women change for men and men dont have to do anything at all.
however in actual fact,
now i wish i dont have to change for anyone anymore anyway.
but i like langarts discussions cos its fun and provoking.
hahahaha.

tmr cca is confirm die die!!!!
6.4km = 16 rounds around de track
seems like little.
but its damn tough alright.

thats so cool right!
hahaha band-wades they are called.
cos this nba star started wearing it below his eye after it got scratched and didnt take it off.
and restarted another trend.
but now the NBA bans him from wearing it anymore!
so sad!
looks kinda cool:D

2k chalet

some pics from 2k's class chalet last year.
will post more when i receive more next time.

motivated,

back from tkd!
i spent the whole time teaching a newcomer basic stuff.
and the thing about teaching newcomers is that you have to talk alot.
well at least he followed my instructions.
its kinda a good feeling to see how your student improves through your teaching.
so i completed teaching him the first pattern of TKD
and in the process confusing myself for a while too.
LOL.
den after tkd our senior taught us some extra stuff
and talked about tkd stuff
and a super painful self defence technique
try me, shake my hand.

im going for my 2nd dan senior black grading in august!
which is quite a short period of time left to train cos there is alot of stuff to learn.
so im gonna train hard!
and acheive my goal.


disgusting dunk.

lots of homework to complete:|

Time, is going by, so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun, every single day
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day
I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day

this is the life.

i topped up my card yesterday to 5 dollars.
now im left with less than 3 dollars in my card.
which means i spent close to 2 dollars on travelling today!
on a student concession ticket hello.

left home at 11.30 am to go vivo and met pearlyn.
then went to dhoby ghaut at around 1.30 and waited for the rest of my class(clique) to reach.
and wow its amazing how 6 ppl from different places can be actually late for more than an hour.
totally amazing.
ended up meeting at 2.30
when the actual time to meet was 1.
went to plaza sing cinema to see what movies were up.
thought that maybe the cathay would have better choices.
walked to cathay in the rain.
to find out that the movie times were worse.
and had to walk back in a even bigger rain.
in the end caught fast and furious 4 IN THE FRONT ROW.
like FRONT ROWhello!
luckily we switched to the 2 and 3rd rows were there was no one if not my neck would be aching now.
sat on the second row extreme left(which wasnt comfortable for the neck either)
and finished the show.
and i was broke like never before.
hardly had any money left.

despite that
i went to LOT 1 after FF4 to catch ANOTHER movie with nicky zilie shaowei jaslyn bla bla
ppl whom i dont always hang out with.
nicky lent me 20 dollars(not the other way round)
and we watched the nc16 movie shijuku incident
jackie chan!
who didnt fight like he always does.
even jaslyn is 16 la!
i was the only one not 16 there and the person checked her ic luckily.
cos she was like the youngest looking there already.
so she pass everybody pass.
hahaha.
the movie was cool and gory at the same time.
about japanese mafias and everything.
nc16 part is where the hands got chopped off.
totally cool and gory.
but its weird seeing jackie chan not fighting like a hero though.
sad ending!:(
he died.
boo.

then apparently the rest of them actually wanted to go alfreda's house to play mahjong.
den realised it was late and procrastinated cos some had to go home early.
and i watched them trying to persuade and everything.
finding the best solution like how to make alfreda not pissed if they didnt go.
or find ppl so got enough to play mahjong.
say until me-.-
not like i can go or even play mahjong luh!
my dad is coming back from paris tmr 7am:|
no more early mornings going school myself.
coming back late and every thing!
but also no more outings:|
anyways all of them went to alfreda's house to show face.
hahahahaha.

and they were talking about this incident they came across when they went to de halloween chalet last year!
brrrr scary luh.
they went to OCH(old changi hospital) to explore in the night.
den apparently someone could see stuff
den saw this (person) following one of them
because she was wearing an RV uniform.
which apparently looks like a nurse's uniform?
grahhhh so they went out.
and it creeped me out cos i was wearing a totally white shirt and the way home was really dark and creepy.
hahaha scaring myself.
but still scary.

time to work hard for exams already.
no more playing!

everything that you needed to be.

omfg im like finally home alright:D
completely shagged today can!
morning pe i ran my 2.4.
i didnt break 9 minutes!:(
cos during the last round ms loo gave me the stopwatch to time myself
den i accidently pressed the stop button.
so it was stopped at 9.25.
den i thought i still had time left
in the end back to finishing line it was 10.08-.-
grahhhhh.
then after 2.4 my class was playing ball with 4B
and they were like losing?
so i couldnt stand watching so i played with them.
made me unhappy lor.
i was panting throughout de whole game and was quite pissed at how they are so rough.
hahaha but nvm at least i showed them what we've got.

then pulau semakau was so -.-
okay la still not bad.
quite fun and cool.
but i tell you i hate it when you want to sit alone.
and have your own private space and ppl come and disturb you!
and camwhore!
me and sw was like -_-
and on the boat back we drove across the storm and could see like streaks of rain falling down from behind de boat
very cool!!
like sunlight passing through de clouds like that.
and i was damn tired by the time we went back already.

and here i am.
back from vivocity cos we went there to eat and wanted to watch movie too!
but expectedly its too late to watch movie and there's alot of ppl too.
so we walked and talked.
grahhhh i hate vivo cos its so freaking big and you must walk alot to get from one place to another!
sucks big time.
and we are going out again tmr!
yay.
but i bet nobody's gonna plan it one.
as always.
so im gonna go online and ask them to go tmr.
i love long weekends:D

very very TIRED T.T

proved to me that there isn't just black and white;
but a thousand shades of grey.

it was a long and dark december.

what a fun day:D
fun and tiring.
because it is healthy lifestyle day!
and the yog ceremony.
muhahaha in actual fact i ponned the yog ceremony.
me nicky and jiajun went to PSA building to have breakfast before we came to school.
because no attendance was taken for assembly!
so we met at 7.30 at the bus stop after rv
den went to psa eat breakfast
chatted for a while
den leslie called at said that de ceremony was over.
so we went back school at close to 9.
found out a way to enter school without even getting a yellow slip.
i cannot tell you how here because its obvious i cant tell you!
LOL so we went to school more than an hour late without a single yellow slip
and walked into class because no teachers were there!
den like half an hour later during chem ms tan came in and asked if everybody was here today.
muhahahahaha.
heard the YOG ceremony was boring.
oops sorry i missed it!!:D

everybody was buying sushi and i didnt get to buy it today that i told sw that we were going sakae anyway or whatever!
grahhhh in the end also never go.
cos i went vivo with nicky and nobody wanted to go with us:|
so its the two of us again.
window shopping at Diesel.
and got stared by the stupid salesperson who always seem to stare whenever i walk in.
like what?
students cant buy 250++ hoodies?-.-
hmph.
then we walked around for a bit.

and bakerzin's selling this awesome looking treat!

dont think its just the display that looks nice.
the REAL one looks even more enticing!
and its only sold for 2.50!
and its not small too.
like de size of an average muffin.
imagine how pissed me and nicky got when we wanted to go in and they said they were closed for an event.
freaking hell!
cant i even go into the shop to fucking takeaway that thing!
like it would kill them luh!
inflexible.


so we went to coffee bean(instead of starbucks!)
hazelnut latte and homemade carrot cake.
then sat for super long there looking at what ppl wear to vivo
and talking and keeping silent and talking again.
den i was like suddenly felt like eating sushi all over again!
so i went to cold storage to buy raw salmon sushi.
and had to queue for ten minutes to pay for it-.-

and wow band got silver.
though i dunno the whole point of aiming so high for SYF
or the whole rationale for getting a gold with honours.
but i guess its pretty much a MUST to do so.
judging from the looks of the band ppl faces.
hmmmmm.

oh shit time's up.
my sis made me post in 17 mins-.-

aint gonna change my mind.

finally i got past monday.
took 2 tests.
chem and math!
actually shouldbe 3 tests one.
but lucky i take phy tmr:D
hehehehe.
and im happy that de tests are easy!
cos i was damn emo before the the tests and stressed and everything:(
at least its over now.
and i dont regret watching 5 hours of tv yest.

today's phy prac was fun!
because it about de electric circuits and stuff.
den you can connect a clip from one terminal of de batt andtouch de other terminal
there will be A SPARK!
hahaha it was fun.
of course cannot do it before teacher luh.
den i linked up like 3 batteries and de sparks got bigger.
sw is worse luh!
blew de lamp by connecting 4 batteries-.-

apparently im damn tired today.
plus i got home at 8pm cos we were playing ball after math test.
fun:D
but exhausting.
life's so tired nowadays.
but at least it keeps my mind off things:)

okay im like looking for a song but i cant find the player.
so heck.
its titled "stuck with each other" by akon and shontelle.
its a song for the movie "Confessions of a Shopaholic."
speaking of movies:D
i wanna watch Fast and Furious 4 and Knowing:D

posted in like 5 mins-.-

没结果的故事才最美。

highlights of our final bdiv match here.
got my name twice but dont have my photo!!!
grahhh i play so long the cameraman never take my photo.
sians.
hahahaha but nvm.
goodwork by the reporter!
got almost everything everyname right.
and was like viewing both courts back to back:D
and you can see how tall that queensway jiajun is in the photos
plus that dunker #12.

justification is a remarkable thing- takes all those solid lines and blurs them, so that honor becomes as supple as a willow and ethnics burst like soap bubbles.
justify why things are as it is now.

okay short post.
hahaha i was just here to see the redsports updates:D
and remind me there's tests tmr.

iPod Shuffle!

i got it.

i go my black ipod shuffle already:D

damn i tell you its damn pretty!!!
small and tiny and nano
and so damn chio.
LOL im so super afraid i would scratch the screen or what. ( is there a stupid skin for it or what!!?)
just compare the size of the earphone and the ipod itself and you know how small it is already la.
so nice right!!!!:D
im currently syncing my songs into it.
not enough space of cos.
so what goes in shall be the best songs i have:)

oh and i just realised that my computer, phone and mp3 is all from apple.
im becoming a apple fan!!!!
LOL no big deal lor
apple products are so quality based and pretty:D

i have come to the resolution that right now in my life,
comes a full stop.
a period.
this is where i start a all new sentence.
a different topic sentence.
and my life would change,
and i wouldn't let no nothing from the past affect me anymore.
from now on,
i will be living in the present, looking towards the future.
never; turning back.

okay time to mug chem and math.
and maybe physics since i havent took it.
just get next week over and done with and den i can relax for awhile.
ive decided to go watch a movie no matter what on Good Friday.
even if i have to go alone.

all things come to an end

im like finally its friday!
i can finally have my eight hours of sleep time.
and get enough rest.
and get out of bed after the sun got out of his.
instead of getting up before even de earliest birds do:D
i can finally sleep enough!
yay:D

B'div basketball 2009 has finally come to an end.
our journey ends here. today.
we are first round knockouts of the nationals.
the team to be swept and lost all.
but its been such a journey for all of us.
pure luck that we had xumeng in our team
luck that we had a great draw during the second round of west zone
and didnt have the big three teams in our line ups.
and then we acheived our goal of top 4 in west zone.
got into the nationals after a three season drought.
its been such a satisfying competition.
pretty much brought our team together alot.
basketball is brotherhood.

today my class took the physics test
and its just scary to see how they mug you know.
from start of school all the way to the last period, which is physics,
they are mugging mugging mugging.
i srsly dont see the point in copying everything from your notes and your assignment.
wlao i tell you la im truly stressed out already.
next week has three tests for me
phy chem and math.
and its just annoying seeing how your class studies for tests and it pushes you hard.
like you cannot not study and must do well so badly.
when we got the mid year schedule today i was totally stressed.
i dont even wanna think about my birthdate already lor.
i just cant wait to get the exams over and done with.
hate all this shit.
and the only thing that made me forget about the tests and everything is basketball only.
just for a little while,
i was a free person.

went to jp after our match.
lost by i think 11 or 12 points.
i contributed 6.
played for more than a quarter:D
ate at burger king and tried the new burger
not bad luh!
and i seriously cannot stand the crowd at jp okay.
i bumped into dunno how many people there!
so many many people!
grrrrrrrr.
and me and nicky went to this shop called Cool Little Things.
and the stuff there are really damn cool!:D

i bought this notebook cos it was so cool shit!
not really worth the price but who cares:D

i can hear the truck tires comin up
the gravel road
and its not like her to drive that slow
nothing's on the radio
footsteps on the front porch
i hear my doorbell
she usually comes right in
now i can tell

here comes goodbye
here comes the last time
here comes the start of every sleepless night
the first of every tear i'm gonna cry

here comes the pain
here comes me wishin things had never changed
and she was right here in my arms tonight

but here comes goodbye

i can hear her say "i love you"
like it was yesterday
and i could see it written on her face
that she had never felt this way

one day i thought i'd see her
with her daddy by her side
and violins would play
"here comes the bride"

but here comes goodbye
here comes the last time
here comes the start of every sleepless night
the first of every tear i'm gonna cry

here comes the pain
here comes me wishin things had never changed
and she was right here in my arms tonight

but here comes goodbye

why does it have to go from good to gone
before the lights turn on
yeah you're left alone
oh

but here comes goodbye

oh

here comes goodbye
here comes the last time
here comes the start of every sleepless night
the first of every tear i'm gonna cry

here comes the pain
here comes me wishin things had never changed
and she was right here in my arms tonight

but here comes goodbye

oh

well im past this already.
maybe more applicable for yj huh:D

comment:

Feb 3rd, 9:44pm

Love this song! Who hasn't been there?

true huhh.
my new fave song!
damn nice.
you dont go to goodbye.
it comes to you like it always should.

wishing things would never change.

i didnt blog yesterday!
purposely did so cos i was lazy and didnt have the mood to.
but i turned on my comp to play though.
SPORE is fun!:D

did the napfa test today:D
complete waste of my time.
gold,
if you consider my 2.4 to be C and above when i run it tomorrow.
so dumb one la my muscles were like aching from yesterday's training still have to do napfa.
boooo
nvm im also shocked at myself for being able to do pull ups.
and pass the standing board jump and the sit and reach
wow.

after napfa still had to stay back for physics remedial leh!
like already 4 sth already lor
but i guess everybody went willingly cos the test was coming up:|
although im gonna pon it la:D
hehehehe.
i hate qualitative type of physics.
explanations and concepts are just crap.
i think calculations are much better because what you get in the end proves the concept.
the end justify the means.

i am so sick and tired of waking up everyday at 5.45
den get so dead tired that i go back to bed and wake up at 6.00!
you know how tough it is to drag ourselves out of bed every single day!
its like your body is up but your mind is still on that soft pillow!
honestly gets on my nerves to realise im past time and have to rush
rush through everything!
i can wash up, bath, change, and eat breakfast all in 20 minutes lor.
and it sucks you know.
sleeping so little and waking up so early to sit on the uncomfortable bus seat.
i dunno where i get my energy from.

watching dead leaves dance in a spiral on the ground.
though in unison;
they are never ever together physically
and are broken and fallen.
because nothing holds them upright anymore.
they are at the mercy of the wind.

came into my mind when a sudden gust of wind blew at the bus stop.