we're just racing time, where's the finish line.

im here with pictures!!
loads of them.
without my face
cos i didnt take a single group photo during cny:|


look at my pretty house!!!
LOL i did the decorations with my sis until i was pissed:(

first stop! maternal grandmother's house. triplets!

webcamming with my 2nd sis who is at canada!

wah lao i go there den like have two DSLR cameras luh-.-

den went back home and waited till like evening and den go out bai nian again.
dont have pictures cos it was boring there.
hahaha

driverXD

next day everybody ( my aunts uncles cousins) all came to my house for lunch!
all brought their food so we had a buffet lunch!:D

why all eating in front of the comp?

because of her la! i dont care you better buy me my abercrombie & fitch tee and polo too!

hahaa den went to my cousin's house and played his wii!
but the videos are super unglam so i wont post them!
heh.

the sister & her cameraman for cny-.-

okay i just downloaded picasa!
gonna edit my photos next time round:)

motivation is the factor.

i was running with yithong in the morning today
because i came to school early.
and i was bored and didnt hurt to train anyway.
well it did hurt lar.
spent the whole day after the run trying not to fall asleep.
only like truly woke up in the last period.
PHYSICS
because ms tan was wearing this ridiculous shirt backwards!
so the buttons were at the back
and it looked entirely like it is worn wrongly luh!
so we spent 15 mins talking about it and i ended up wearing my hoody backwards too:D
den she spent almost the entire lesson explaining two questions but to no avail.
LOL.

CCA was boring and crowded.
spent the whole time shooting balls too.
den 100 free throws total for 15 ppl
hahaha i didnt miss the first 10 or so
den started missing!
there went my 100%!
miss liao still had to run one round and back.

rembr tt time i said theres only three things i'd work my heart out for this year?
tkd bball and studies
and i will work doubly hard for them!
nothing and nobody will get in my way anymore.

take everything from my consciousness
and please erase my dreams i once had.

lose the track that loses me.

i wanted to update yesterday about cny and pics.
but my sis took my camera to school!
yeah we borrowed a camera from a friend.
then today
i got home
wanted to update again den the camera's not at home again-.-
haish.

i watched The Wedding Game on tues!
it was so boring luh.
but it has been long
very very very long since i watched a damn movie.
and i dont like this kind of local shows!
i rather those hollywood blockbusters man.
because you can find them online!
hahaha:D

and my body is still aching like crazy!!!!
stupid one luh.
yesterday we wanted to stay back and play ball
den the A div had training ma
and coach came.
we thought we could just leave when he comes
who knew he'd ask us to train
and not even let us play matches!
so left me nicky yt and xp training shooting.
50 balls
from 5 spots.
and they must go in-.-
so now my back hurts and so does my legs and arms.


Wish I had concentrated,
They said love was complicated,
But it's something I just fell into.
And it was overrated,
But just look what I created,
I came out alive, but I'm black and blue.

happy cny no.

sian tomorrow is school again.
haish and my angpow count is damn damn little!!!!
grahhhhhhh.
i hate this CNY period.
seriously so boring and tiring luhh.

okay larh dont know what to type la
no pictures to upload cos im damn lazy to transfer them.
i dont have the damn mood!!!!!
very very pissed liao.

i want to start gym!

dunno why im dat pissed also.

boring and stupid cny.

see its so early and im at home.
just went to my maternal's grandparents house.
last year there were loads and loads of ppl
den this is only like 4 families were there-.-
sian la no moneyT.T

so now im stuck at home till de evening where i'd go to my dad's godmother's house again.
while all of you are happily collecting red packets.
this is gonna be de worst CNY for me ever.
cos of the lack of red packets and mood:|

原来爱跟头发一样，都可以剪短.

and i can't pretend.

why does everybody say i like to hide my feelings?
do i?
i really feel im already like trying to make myself not seem like trying to hide alot.
but you cant expect somebody to wear their hearts on their sleeves right.
its impossible
if it was possible then the world wouldnt have misunderstandings anymore.
like honestly ask yourself
can you tell everything i mean EVERYTHING you feel to someone?
so impossible.

hah there are people who can read other pretty well.
like songwei!
in the understanding way luh.
though he's abit mysterious sometimes too.
LOL.
but he's understanding:)
right not sw?
and kaypo tooXD.
not outwardly.

i almost got half month tuition fee from my tuition teacher.
he likes to bet questions with us
can get correct answer den have money lor.
but obviously theres a catch.
so this time the catch was the question was wrong-.-
zzzzzz.
he just cant bear to part with his money luh.
i want money!!!!!!!!!
red packets faster come!! :|

do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about.

too long.

today was plain stupid luh.
should have ponned school like veron-.-
and then should also have went out with other people too.

the CNY celebrations were so lame luh.
all planned by prcs
me and songwei were like behind with ._. faces.
i still liked last years teachers day celebration better.
that rocked:)

i think our school pants and a plain white shirt looks nice!
cos that was what i wore out.
hahaha.
nice nice nice:)

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She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for

He calls her up
He’s trippin on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
He knows she’s movin it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s losing it
She don’t care

Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love

He was always giving her attention
Looking hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
But most suckers hate it
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him

She calls him up
She’s tripping on the phone now
He had to get up
And he ain’t comin home now
He’s tryin to forget her
That’s how we come with him
When he first met her
When they first got together

Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feel the beat now


If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love

To the beat (x3)
You got nothing to lose
Don’t be afraid to get down

We break up
It’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay, let it go
Get out there and find someone

It’s too late to be trippin' on the phone here
Get off the wire
You know everything is good here
Stop what you’re doin'
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
find a new one

Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love

Nooo...Noooo

Now you know what to do, so come on feelin' good


shopping alone again.

i know i will.

I don't need to fall at your feet
Just cause you cut me to the bone
And I won't miss the way that you kiss me
We were never carved in stone

And If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself
I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
Because I am the king of wishful thinking
Because I am the king of wishful thinking

I refuse to give in to my blues
That's not how it's gonna be
And I deny the tears in my eyes
I don't wanna let you see, no

That you had made a whole in my heart
And now I've got to fool myself
I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my ships not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you

Because I am the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my ships not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
Because I'm the king of wishful thinking

If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself
I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my ships not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
Because I'm the king of wishful thinking
I am the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you I know I will
You made a whole in my heart
But I won't she'd a tear for you
I'll be the king of wishful thinking
(I'll be the king of wishful)

I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my hearts still beating
Cause I've got no more tears for you
I am the king of wishful thinking
(King of wishful thinking) no


some people just dont know where they stand.
people ought to put them in place.

b'div 四强！

we won today.
by forty points?
first quarter was really quite scary cos we were not very ready yet.
but after that we found our footing then started owning!
hahas
winning is such a good feeling luh.
plus a monetary award from coach
$50 to get drinks for the whole team if we win.
great right!!
we didnt let him down.
so after chinese new year its two more matches
which should be quite easy.
and then 2nd round.
boo im scared of the second round.
redsports.sg voted that hwachong newtown jurong and unity would get into top 4
and i hwachong is really a team we must fear!!!
haish.
buck up people!!!!
i dont wanna lose my hair.
hahahaha.

ate dinner with the bballers and that prc(xu meng) today
he is damn funny luh
always arguing with cheehow.
and his jokes are funny too!!
more importantly he is good in bball-.-

hey look a tag by someone on redsports.sg!

zomgrats!: whole of hwachong team are good. rv also. wonder who would win who. if they are playing i would definitely go down to watch

iced signature chocolate without whipped cream.

but the words cant bring me down

this is absolutely disgusting!!!
completely imba luh
three kicks in the air-.-
i can only manage two.
and its only a 360.
haha
there is no way i can ever kick like that lol.
im so motivated to taekwondo already!
quick i wanna get promoted!

we lost today.
played pretty( well very ) well in the first quarter
won them by two points
den started losing already.
in the end lost 12 points.
come on luh already very good liao
their guard is like DWIGHT HOWARD size-.-

like him.
just shorter.
check those muscles=.=

i wanna go to the gym!!!!!

still counting the days.

[ video here ]
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what I was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what I was tryin to do

I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

pause that song up there please! ;D



So here I go and there you went...again
Just another stupid thing that I done wrong.
Locked up in my head, knocked down, beaten, left for dead
With all those brilliant things I should have said.
I gotta get away, and find something to do
'Cause everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.

Still counting the days I've been without you 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you've been gone.

Day one, was no fun.
Day two, i hated you.
By day three I wish you'd come right back to me.
Day four, five and six, well I guess you just don't give a shit.
Day seven, this is hell. this is hell.
I gotta get away, and find something to do.
But everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.

Still counting the days I've been without you 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you've been gone.
Still counting the days since you left me. 1,2,3,4...
Still counting the days since you've been gone.

A thousand things I wanna say to you, but it's too late now.
A thousand things I wanna say...
A thousand things I wanna say to you, but it's too late now.
A thousand things I wanna say...

Still counting the days I've been without you.
Still counting the days that you've been gone.
Still counting the days I've been without you 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you've been gone.
Still counting the days since you left me 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you've been gone.

taking it better with every passing day!

shopping spree

i bought my bag today!!
its from newurbanmale :)
and its not cheap!
116 bucks after 10% discount.

at least i spent some money.
been saving up for so long
and didnt know what to spend it on.
but its shocking how fast money can be spent!:|

went bball shoe shopping with the bballers too
haha quite fun!
but in the end also never buy any shoe
except maybe leslie's sneakers.
oh i just remembered
he didnt buy it in the end
cos they figured queensway would have it too-.-
so fussy right!

tkd today was sort of motivating.
hence i have three goals this year
just this three i'd be commited on
1. Get into top four for west zone competitions.
2. Go for conversion grading and get my 2nd dan senior belt.
3. Get my ass promoted, cause year 4 ain't easy.
just this three i will push myself to achieve.
others that come
i certainly wont put my whole heart in it
not anymore.

i want to get more clothes!!!
i want to change myself.
with every step i take i'll shall leave a little of the old youxiang behind.

if there's one memory i don't wanna lose.

Last Time - Secondhand Serenade

I'm stuck with writing songs
Just to forget
What they really were about
And these words are bringing me so deeply insane
That I don't think I can take my way out

I couldn't breathe through it
Like I need to and the words don't mean a thing

So I'll sing this song to you
For the last time
And my heart is torn in two
Thinking of days spent without you
And there is nothing left to prove

I'm counting all the things I could have done
To make you see
That I wanted us to be what I go to sleep and dream of
I want you to know that I'd die for you
I'd die for you

I couldn't breathe through it
Like I need to and the words don't mean a thing

So I'll sing this song to you
For the last time
And my heart is torn in two
Thinking of the days spent without you
And there's nothing left to prove

And if you are alone
Make sure you're not lonely
Cuz if you are, I blame myself
For never being home
I know I'm not the only one
Who will treat you like they should
What you deserve

I'm stuck with writing songs
Just to forget

So I'll sing this song to you
For the last time
And my heart is torn in two
Thinking of the days spent without you
And there's nothing left to prove.



spent almost the entire night on my bed awake
and reliving all that we've been through
for the last time.

telling myself i've moved on.

if there's one memory i don't wanna lose.

goodbye.

It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe were the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything we've been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way

And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Goodbye

Bye

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong.

Kanye West
I’m cold
I’m cold (Yeah)
I’m cold

Lil Wayne
Yeah
I got the right to put up a fight
but not quite cause you cut off my light
But my sight is better tonight and I might
See you in my nightmare
Oh how did you get there
Cause we were once a fairytale
But this is fair well

Kanye West
I got my life and its my only one
I got the night, I’m running from the sun
So goodnight, I made it out the door (door door door door)
After tonight, there will be no return
After tonight, I’m taking off on the road
I’m taking off on the road

And that you know (that you know)
Tell every one that you know
That I don’t love you no more
And that’s one thing that you know
That you know!

Kanye West
OK I’m back up on my grind
You, do you and I’m just gone do mine
You, do you cause I’m just gone be fine
OK I got you out my mind

The night is young, the drinks is cold
The stars is out, I’m ready to go
You always thought I was always wrong
Well know you know
Tell everybody everybody that you know
Tell everybody that you know
That I don’t love you no more
And that’s one thing that you know
That you know

Lil Wayne
I got the right to put up a fight
But not quite cause you cut off my light
But my sight is better tonight and I might
See you in my nightmare
Oh but how did you get there
Cause we were once a fairytale
But this is fair well yeaah

Baby girl I’m finished
I thought we were committed
I thought we were cemented
How I thought we meant it
Now we just forgetting
Now we just resenting
The clouds in my vision
Look how high I be getting
And it’s all because of you

Girl we through
You think your sh!t don’t stink but you are Mrs. P you
And I don’t see you with me no more
Now tell everybody that you know
That you know

Kanye West
That you know
Tell everybody that you know
That I don’t love you no more
And that’s one thing that you know
That you know
That you know
Tell everyone that you know
That I don’t love you no more
And that’s one thing that you know
That you know.

angry enough?

hateful enough?

but i dont mean it at all.

happy 牛 year.

whee school aniversary was actually quite fun!
cos i was sitting with the bballers.
more specifically beside xiaopang
so it was plain hilarious.
but also quite boring because of all the lame speeches and everything.
dont ever ppl go up there and say something that they wanna say and people wanna hear?
why put on a show
when they cant even do it well luh.

something bad happened in training today.
no in fact two things.
first
i just got two huge blisters and one of them burst already.
and second
is that fucker bihao who gave coach attitude.
i dont always use that word
but he really is one!
how can he disrespect coach right.
like come on everything coach does is not to always make your life difficult right!
if not what is a coach for already?
he has the absolute right to pump you and doesnt mean you not happy means you dont do it.
i was telling the sec4 baller about wanting to beat him up with colourful language
then they were like " why you so dulan about it"
and i said cos coach shld be respected
then they said " but you dont respect your teachers also" -.-
hahas.
some people in life really deserve your respect
cause of things they do and what they make you become
others,
just make me despise them.
cause they dont respect you in the first place.
so sorry.

tomorrow im going out with the ballers after tuition!
vivo at 4:)
first is to exchange sw's haivianas to a bigger size(and prettier colour maybe)
den off to penisula to get nicky's bball shoes.
hope my teacher doesnt end late.

from next week im going to the school gym with yujun every wed!
cos i think im getting fatter now sch started
dunno why
and im gonna build up too!:)

basketball is brotherhood.

happy birthday songwei!!!

16 and still as childish as ever.
hahaha.
use my wallet okay!:)

start of bdiv competitions
first match was chestnut drive today
and yay we won!!
well completely thrashed.
97-24 :D
so many people come and watch today luh
crazy one
i think like got 40 rvians there watching-.-
but none of which support worth great enough.
and our pe teachers were there too!
well at least we didnt let everyone down right.
imba china man.
first 15 points and they were still at 0!
this made me believe that we were actually contenders worthy of top 4
so work hard people!!!
for rv and more importantly keeping our hair on our heads.


take me back to when the world was one by one.

fearless

today was T.T boring and tiring.

morning was running errands with songwei
go take that super big board with him
then 4F chairperson couldnt manage
so i helped her.
and after assembly take school organiser for class too.den first lesson bio prac
i didnt know we had to go lab.
den in the end i had to run to lab and check
den run back to tell the class T.T
and i almost counted the names off the namelist for those who want bio files till i went mad!!
keep counting wrong:(
being subject representatives are dumb jobs.
and in the end i didnt even order the file cos the queues are just too long.
and brenda law's lessons are seriously sleepy!!!!!! :|

CID was also -.-
went LT4 cos we tot must go
den mrs lim say LT1 first.
den after like 20 mins then go to LT4 again!
and do nothing but listen to her sleepy voice.
hahas.
and im still not very sure about our project though.
but i guess it is like growing plants in sewage water to reduce the nitrates or phosphates in the water?
so it doesnt cause eutrophication or sth?
damn CID sounds really tedious now.

tomorrow is MATCH DAY!
start of the b'div competition.
and i was sitting there thinking it through.
and realised i should really be setting my goals in my life
figured and weighed everything
that studies and bball(not in order!) are the top of the list.
i cant say the same bout others.
people good luck for competition kay!
jiayous:)
i dont wanna shave my head.


this is the last straw.
there's nothing left to beg for.
don't wanna hurt anymore.

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺 就成了枷锁

"dont give me that shit!"

i left my phone in my dad's car in the morning today
and it sucked not having your phone for the whole day!
so i took songwei's phone and used it for the whole day.
yay
it kept me entertained with all the games and everything:)

then i went vivo after school to get songwei's present.
who knew qy ys sy they all would get a pair of haivianas for him!
i wanted to get it for like so long already:|
so i had to go vivo to shop for a presie
hahas and what i bought....
SECRET!
and i saw alot of things i wanna buy
but resisted the temptation.

and who actually signs contracts to be best buddies huh!
have you ever heard of that!
complete with terms and conditions and all!
LOL.
that's completely stupid.
why did i sign it!!!
now veron is like " eh how can like that you promised!" :|
and people im a "whatever" person

[20:23:30] I never meant to steal your smile. says:
you dont whatever me luh!!!
[20:23:31] I never meant to steal your smile. says:
:(
[20:23:53] iceMAN#05 [ everything that we could be. ] says:
whateverrrr
[20:23:59] I never meant to steal your smile. says:
fineee

hahahas.

saw that american idol ad on tv
and hey natasha bedingfield is not black!
wow i always thought she was black LOL
cos angel sounds too much like a black song
hahas.
welll now i know she's white
and pretty too:)

yay tmr is cid.
cid is fun and slack
because what my group is doing is totally all worked out
we dont even have to think of project title!
mrs lim actually told us what she wants us to do!
so its gonna be fun:)
errr not including the fact that we'd be messing with sewage.


i want bagpack:|
i want shopping.
i dont want to be everything to everyone.



just when i thought.

i just got back from tiong bahru plaza!

saw alot of people i know on the way there.
three of my tkd seniors
and two rvians.
LOL.

and that woman at myuniformshop actually didnt wanna change my uniform for me
but later she did.
im like its not like she'd lose money like that why dont let me change it
since she's just a shop assistant!
which reminds me of that time i was at starbucks
i ordered a grande iced chocolate
then the other cashier punched a tall one into the cash register
and it was $6.00 instead of the 6.50 i wanted
then i told him i asked for a grande
so he hesitated for a while
den just took my money and quietly said
"we'll make a grande for you"
and i paid $6.00 only.
welll that's good service right!
hahahaha.

and surprise surprise
guess who i saw at the uniform shop.
its DAVE and family!!!!
LOL.
and he was so excited seeing me and ruffled my hair for so damn long.
apparently people
he's coming back to RV.
with a.... well much bigger belly than ever.
look im being straightforward and truthful alright.
hahas.
so he was there to buy uniforms.
and yeah he's coming back to bball too.
gawd who knows what coach is gonna say about that.
he's gonna add on to the already 3 min long story about dave liaos.

so hands up to those wanting him back!
i'll keep those hands busy.

and yeah you wont be seeing many pics on my blog now
cause my sis took my cybershot to canada!!!!!!
and there isnt really much to capture in my life anyways.
I WANT A SLR!!!!

you know those black big cameras professionals use.
those that cost thousands of dollars.
but i dont think i'd be having it bleh
cos my dad doesnt think we need a camera!
let alone a SLR
but if i want a normal camera
it will be this!

wtf pretty larh!!!
haish.
can only see.
i touched it once!
at a roadshow:)

not sure i remember how to

i still have to go to tiong bahru plaza later!
to change my uniform
because they gave me the wrong shirt.
and then mr chua saw it
and asked me to go and change it.
the only difference is like the double pleats behind everyones but not mine!
i wonder if they would let me change not
since i wore it for a week already:|

west zone b'div competitions starts next wednesday!
wish us good luck!
chee how said
if we didnt get into top 4 placing
we will all go and cut botak!
LOL.
not that i mind alot
but i dont think others would comply though lol!
anyways the competitions mean i would miss alot of lessons and end up having a tough time catching up:(

Dont Give Up On Me - Daniel Powter
I don't know what I did
But most bein' a fool
I got no excuses
So I wrote this song for you

Whatever the reasons did you come to say goodbye
I'm hoping for one more try
I want to change your mind

So I pick up the pieces
I swallow all my pride
I don't wanna wake up feeling this emptiness inside

Did it spin you around
Did it turn you upside down
I wonder when you found out I'm a waste of your time

So don't give up on me (don't give up on me)
I never meant to steal your smile
I haven't seen it for a while

Don't don't give up on me (don't give up on me)
Just try to understand
I can be your better man

I tell you once just don't give up on me

I tell you once just don't give up on me

And now I feel I'm out of place
I look for you on every stranger's face
I don't think I can do this any more
Don't think I do this any more

And every little things just falls apart
From the very first that day I broke your heart
It only makes me want you more and more
Just like before

Coz you're spinnin' around
And now you turn me upside down
I never meant to be a waste your time

So don't give up on me (don't give up on me)
I never meant to steal your smile
I haven't seen it for a while

Don't don't give up on me (don't give up on me)
Just try to understand
I can be your better man

I tell you once just don't give up on
Me and before
If you're not that alone
What am I supposed to do?

I tell you once just don't give up on me
Baby say you won't give up on me.


mustering up.
just wait.

turn me upside down.

today was damn shuang
and very tiring too.
after morning assembly i was walking back to class
den saw zl jj and leslie
ask me wanna help out for cca trials not
so i helped lor
since i can pon lesson for whole dayXD

hence i spent my entire day out at the bball court
and now im VERY VERY sunburnt
"very" is such an understatement luh
super red can!

and training was super crap
coach made us shoot balls for the entire training
and today was freaking windy!
the wind was directly against the direction of the ball
so it was damn hard to shoot
and like must score ten before we could change to the next person!
i was super pissed off with missing cos i didnt have strength
totally frustrating la
keep scolding profanities at the ball and wind-.-
so it wouldnt be a surprise i cant even lift my hand tomorrow
cos coach said he would make us shoot till we cannot lift our hands before:|
damn hiong lar
tired:(

im just gonna shuffle songs on itunes and play comp
until im motivated enough to bathe.


pick up the pieces
swallow my pride.

Thinking of days spent with you.
And if you are alone
Make sure you're not lonely.
Cause i'd blame myself.

stuck with writing
just to forget.

picture perfect?

have i said it before?
that school life sucks!
its so damn tiring luh
just sitting there listening to the boring teachers talk
and it would be a wonder we dont get deep vein thrombosis.
hahaha
and theres still cca which completely exhausts us
make me reach home so late and still have to get scolded because i reach home late.
and all the homework and shit!
go home then no time go online le-.-

but have to accept fate huh.

i hate those ants in the school field!!!
they were biting me to death during the anthem-.-
and like dozens dozens were crawling all over my shoes!!!
and imagine my horro when i saw a SOLDIER ant on my shoe
thank god it didnt bite me
but now my legs itch from all that crazy biting
i really hate those ants
and they made me go to the back and stand cos i couldnt stand it
then get caught my mrs lee lee mui
for my socks which are not RV ones
den i attitude-ed that stupid scouts teacher cos i was super pissed
then apparently he told ms tan
who also came to give me a little talk
and of course
got attitude by me also.
sorry im THAT rebellious.

changed our seating plan!
im seating in the second row in the extreme left
behind veron and pearlyn and beside pengfei!
well its tentative anyway
confirm will change the lar.
i was actually seating beside my old tablemate last year
but since she was so damn dulan
so i changed places and let her friend sit beside her
wei da right!! :D
give up aircon seat leh!:|

yes and english lesson sucks totally ALRIGHT
not only she cant teach
she is as boring as the dresses she wears everyday!
gawd i miss dora lee can!
hmph and she left without a word.

shit i had so much to blog about but i forgot it all
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

oh yes ms loo made us run 2.4 today
and i completely sucked la
10.42 only
12 sec lousier than my last years NAPFA
and now my legs hurt like mad!
maybe cause i wasnt wearing running shoes
or bball shoes for that matter.


tell me something i don't already know.

picture perfect?

what holds?

Wish I could see through
See deep into you
And know what you're thinking now
And if I were to need it
I need some kind of sign
Let me know cuz I can't read your mind

Are you in?
Or am I in this on my own?
I need some clue from you
Let me know babe

[CHORUS]
Do you feel me?
Do you read me?
Tell me am I gettin through to you
I wanna know,
Are you with me?
Are you listenin?
Baby, is my message gettin through?
Do feel me baby, oh babe, cuz I can feel you

You play it so cool
Won't let nothin' show through
Won't show what you're feelin now, no
And you like to keep keepin' me
Keeping me here in the dark
And I can't see through into your heart
Let me in, in on this mystery
Cuz I just can't stay in this guessing game

[CHORUS]

And don't keep me hangin on the line, baby
Tell me if you want me
And if you don't just let me know
Just answer one question
Don't keep me here guessing
Tell me now

[CHORUS]


damn lazy find the music player.
anyways nice lyrics
thanks to ys for them:)

today was boring shit
asshole teachers started lesson so quickly.
and the chinese teacher was like stressing us out
say what year 4 not easy
ask who want to aim for A1
get a life man.
and ms tan is as usual labeling us as the best class bla blah.
oh come on
fact is we arent!
3e was the best class academically last year
so just quit labeling the A class please.

tommorow is cca trials
lets hope it drags on for very long
so training will be slack
cause im starting to hate coach alot.

关于爱 我们都不懂

向前走 还是退后

试着找回当初那相爱的理由


Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...


sorry for all the lyrics!
they speak my mind.
well part of it.

Taylor Swift - White Horse AMA Awards HQ 08 Full

taylor swift singing white horse!
she looks like shes gonna cry:(
so touching:|

tell me where we're headed.

wanted to post yesterday.
but got scolded for using the comp.

i just got home!
went to coach house play bball
damn damn tiring.
but it was funXD.
b div is coming
and im in the team!
by luck?
hahas.

okay larh nothing to post also.
too tired to remember.
i go eat supper liaos
byebye!


so far from where we started.
so far from what we wanted.

happy 2009?

happy new year everybody!!!!

i went for countdown with alvin junbin kitkay lixuan qiuyan and yinshan yesterday!
had starbucks at citylink mall
den walked for very long and finally stopped under the shears benjamin bridge? dere to wait for fireworks.
yeah the fireworks was nice nice:)
but didnt entirely love it.
hees
dunno why.
felt like it was just something else typical.

then we walked all the whole way from singapore flyer
all the whole damn way i repeat from singapore flyer
to lao pa sat.
yeah
took us about less than an hour?
crazy luh
we reached dere at about 130 liddat
den the last train was at 2am
so we ordered satay only
and i had to swallow my mee hoon kuay in like 10 mins!
so now my tongue is burnt and damn raw
hurts when i eat hot and spicy stuff:|

so its the new year.
and everytime the new year comes.
its two things. 1. reflect. 2. resolve.

yeah reflect on 2008.
and resolve for 2009.

so here goes....
2008 was a year where i made quite a number of new friends
and really had to adapt to the new class and everything.
found it hard to accept the fact that i was in 3A
and didnt really like that mugger attitude everyone has.
it was also when i had to part with my grandma.
and also i changed quite alot
in my perceptions thoughts and beliefs.

you changed me.
now let me change you.

sometimes you look back on your life
and then you tend to find many regrets.
many things which you wished you did but didn't do.
when you start looking. you find things you don't want to find.

so this year 2009
i wanna start a brand new year.
and hope i can do everything without regrets.
yeah i might change
i hope to
i want to change into someone neater
who can work harder
who will strive for what i truly want
who has more guts
and yeah complete my lower abs.
there are many more i rather do
but i just wont put them here
many more resolutions
which i know cannot be completed alone.

i spent my entire new year's day
packing my table and room and all the papers
kept myself busy for the entire day luh.
threw away a whole lot of things
so did my sis whole took everything out from her drawers and pile them all around
up till now its still a total mess.
and somebody(i think my dad) left a pair of condoms on my table?
unopened of course-.-
LOL.

oh no i cannot stand 不良笑花！！！
it makes you goddamn cry-.-
not alot shows can do that to me eh
lol
i rather those feel good ones.

pics time.

tkd chalet pics.
spot me man.
never seen myself smile so widely leh.

this was the buffet i ate on 7 dec.
not food pics please.
lazy to put.

she whacked me in the stomach

she moved her head to look "taller".

best photo possible. we always fight.

me my sis and my cousin!

happy three siblings. NOT.

i wasnt happy that day anyway.

yeah so my sis reached canada after 29 hours of flight
the one in the middle on the previous pic.
she reached at about 11pm canada time
and 12 pm singapore time.
and its freaking cold there.
-11 degrees.
so here's her blog
actually i haven even read it yet though.
hees.

happy new year again!
may all my wishes come true.
miss everyone in school!:)