hello world, are you listening. forgive me if im young, for speaking out of turn. there's someone i've been missing, i think that they could be, the better half of me. anddddddddddddd that person is you!!!
okay song lyrics aside. i didnt wanna start blogging again, but since i got talked (vehemently) into it, i realised i should start again, to tell the world(which i know mainly consists of her, and the same her) what i've been thinking and doing lately i guess?
so currently im right in the middle of a transition, after a well deserved block leave that ended my training phase back in HTA, to my new posting at Clementi! which luckily is just a 7 min walk away from my house. heh lucky me i get to wake up at 8am daily :) yet i cant quite say the same about the workload which involves plenty of basic secretariat work, which is clearly an insult to my intelligence LOL. but then again i suppose its still NS and i would just take it as it is, take it as a kind of training for desk riding (yes theres nothing sexual here) for the future when i start studying and when i finally become a associate (hopefully eh). beyond all that details, i must say i better start exploring the good food in clementi, although i already know most of the yummy places here. probably a good idea to find the BEST way to save instead? spend the least for lunch everyday so i can lose weight + save more money! oh well money woes + weight woes. #firstworldpains.
okay im getting pretty tired and heavy headed, dont really wanna put any thought into this blog post anymore so i guess i will just say goodnight here. and here's to my baby, the only reason i am typing this. for you.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Wednesday, August 08, 2012
quick post before i go and do my own stuff.
I'm really struggling to keep myself updated on this blog and stuff. nothing much really to post about since I cannot post about things that happen in camp if not I may get into trouble. I'll just say that being in NS has made me realise that people are different, in so many ways. and more often than not, you find yourself having to compromise to withstand their attitudes and characters. and much more often than not than not (don't know how this works), I find out that alot of people suck. yes they do suck. why do some people just have such unacceptable concept of life and mentality I fail to understand. I guess I probably have to live with them then. its not like in school, you can choose who you wanna be with and stay away from all the weirdos. you're stuck with them for five days a week for a good few months at least. patience, I tell myself. its a virtue.
probably another reason why I don't have anything to say to this blog is because what I need to complain to, need to talk about, I already have someone for it. nothing beats having a human being to share things with I guess. better than talking to a wall. of course, everyone has their wall at some time. we weren't made to be gullible and innocent and all trusting of people. I can understand that fully and don't expect anyone to ignore it. its not like I wont defend myself when the time comes. probably it just needs time for us to see who's on your side of the wall and who shouldn't be. I still trust you all the same. Love you all the same.
this one's for you
and the world.
I'm really struggling to keep myself updated on this blog and stuff. nothing much really to post about since I cannot post about things that happen in camp if not I may get into trouble. I'll just say that being in NS has made me realise that people are different, in so many ways. and more often than not, you find yourself having to compromise to withstand their attitudes and characters. and much more often than not than not (don't know how this works), I find out that alot of people suck. yes they do suck. why do some people just have such unacceptable concept of life and mentality I fail to understand. I guess I probably have to live with them then. its not like in school, you can choose who you wanna be with and stay away from all the weirdos. you're stuck with them for five days a week for a good few months at least. patience, I tell myself. its a virtue.
probably another reason why I don't have anything to say to this blog is because what I need to complain to, need to talk about, I already have someone for it. nothing beats having a human being to share things with I guess. better than talking to a wall. of course, everyone has their wall at some time. we weren't made to be gullible and innocent and all trusting of people. I can understand that fully and don't expect anyone to ignore it. its not like I wont defend myself when the time comes. probably it just needs time for us to see who's on your side of the wall and who shouldn't be. I still trust you all the same. Love you all the same.
this one's for you
and the world.
you're the one i can live for, a reason for life.
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
a new beginning.
its been pretty long since I updated this blog, considering that I wasn't the one who posted the last post. it might be just time to start updating again, record down events of my life. so much has changed, for better and not for worse. I was wondering how I was gonna start, how do you tell the internet what has been going on with your life after such a long hiatus. and then I realised that it isn't that difficult. especially when all that has happened to me is such a blessing, and I just have to tell it to someone. and that would be you.
I realise my writing style has changed so much. I used to be so mellow and deep, like a nice rich bottle of wine. I blame that on adolescence. yet so much has changed. I matured even more, those strong feelings kind of faded into the darkness, and gone was the darkness and into the light. so I cannot expect myself to write in a certain kind of code like I used to; I'll try but it might seem like I'm trying too hard. still, I don't believe that to be something bad. after all growing up means you see through the mess of emotions into defining what is real and what is not. cutting through the clutter. or maybe, very possibly, those strong emotions have been invested into another person.
I cannot accurately describe what these past 7 months have been. except that they have been an awesome load of fun, laughter and love. it has been a whole new experience that brings its own whole new emotions and feelings. you'd never think you can feel so strongly about someone in a manner you've never imagined before. they say "you cannot define love" and that statement is undoubtedly true. has it been a rollercoaster ride? probably. but yet what many leave out in the phrase "rollercoaster ride" is that no matter how far you fall, you just know, almost for sure, that you will rise back up again. and it is this constantly changing momentum that provides its thrill. yet, we won't ever know when the ride goes downhill so as long as we hold the faith that it will go back up again, the thrill will never end.
maybe we would rather life and love without its ups and downs. but without them, we don't see whats important. what we are so afraid to lose in a blink of an eye. I cannot envision a time where I one day have to just forget anything ever happened, and I never will be able to. every date, every milestone is what I live for and what we live for. I'm lucky, for every date we've been out on, every milestone we have reached, every time my heart skips a beat, every new place we've found and every single time I look at you. then I realised; there's no way I'm ever letting you go.
this one is for you.
As years go by, I race the clock with you. But if you died right now, you know that I'd die too.
I realise my writing style has changed so much. I used to be so mellow and deep, like a nice rich bottle of wine. I blame that on adolescence. yet so much has changed. I matured even more, those strong feelings kind of faded into the darkness, and gone was the darkness and into the light. so I cannot expect myself to write in a certain kind of code like I used to; I'll try but it might seem like I'm trying too hard. still, I don't believe that to be something bad. after all growing up means you see through the mess of emotions into defining what is real and what is not. cutting through the clutter. or maybe, very possibly, those strong emotions have been invested into another person.
I cannot accurately describe what these past 7 months have been. except that they have been an awesome load of fun, laughter and love. it has been a whole new experience that brings its own whole new emotions and feelings. you'd never think you can feel so strongly about someone in a manner you've never imagined before. they say "you cannot define love" and that statement is undoubtedly true. has it been a rollercoaster ride? probably. but yet what many leave out in the phrase "rollercoaster ride" is that no matter how far you fall, you just know, almost for sure, that you will rise back up again. and it is this constantly changing momentum that provides its thrill. yet, we won't ever know when the ride goes downhill so as long as we hold the faith that it will go back up again, the thrill will never end.
maybe we would rather life and love without its ups and downs. but without them, we don't see whats important. what we are so afraid to lose in a blink of an eye. I cannot envision a time where I one day have to just forget anything ever happened, and I never will be able to. every date, every milestone is what I live for and what we live for. I'm lucky, for every date we've been out on, every milestone we have reached, every time my heart skips a beat, every new place we've found and every single time I look at you. then I realised; there's no way I'm ever letting you go.
this one is for you.
As years go by, I race the clock with you. But if you died right now, you know that I'd die too.
Thursday, July 26, 2012
What a rare update..
I am sleeping soundly like a pig. Snorezzz.
I wish I will update what's been happening in my life :( Because the past 7 months have been (sings) awwwesomeee~! :P
P/S: There's a post saved in draft... Hehe log in if you wna read it. The password is.. HAH! Kidding.
P/S: There's a post saved in draft... Hehe log in if you wna read it. The password is.. HAH! Kidding.
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