forever is over.

i must be mad.
cos i went to de gym again today.
argh!
tomorrow cca confirm muscle ache until die.
its terrible to train with a muscle ache i tell you.
damn.
i planned to gym for awhile only but i ended up staying for close to 2 hours!
grahhhh.
i went because i didnt wanna go out eat with de rest.
every thursday then got this kind of stuff one.
plus is different social groups of mine go out and eat
and i have to decide which to go to.
so i decided that i shall not entertain any and do my own stuff for once,
enjoying my freedom:D

Addicts are always running after something.
At first its the high.
Later it is just the attempt to feel normal.

become fascinated on the dark side,
like sunbathers who bath in the shadows.

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1 .PICK OUT A SCAR YOU HAVE, AND EXPLAIN HOW YOU GOT IT.
on my left leg. fell when cycling down a super steep slope for fun.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
pictures?

3. WHAT DOES YOUR PHONE LOOK LIKE?
oh dont ask. destroyed?

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
i have 1007 songs in my phone.

5. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE?
hmmm a mac default picture of grass? with droplets of dew on them. apparently taken with a damn good camera.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
this question sounds weird

7. WHAT TIME WERE YOU BORN?
about 1 am?

8. ARE YOUR PARENTS STILL TOGETHER?
together? thats loaded.

9. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
none atm. but i love love drunk by boys like girls.

10. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK?
quite.

11. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
forgot already.

12. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE SAME SEX?
black?

13. DO YOU LIKE PAINKILLERS?
when they are taken to do their part. yes.

14. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
both. hahaha.

15. FAVE PIZZA TOPPING?
cheese and CHEESE

16 IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
nothing.

17. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
hmmmmm

18. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
of course singapore education forces me to be bilingual

19. WHAT WAS THE LAST GIFT SOMEONE GAVE YOU?
OMG. i forgot it was too long ago.

20 DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
nope:D

21.ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
nope. micheal phelps is i know.

22. FAVORITE FRIEND?
:)nicky!

23. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
Lamborghini:D hahahaha

24. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
i dont understand.

25. SAY A NUMBER FROM 1-100.
101. im rebellious.

26. BLONDE OR BRUNETTE?
blonde!

27. WHAT IS THE ONE PHONE NUMBER THAT SHOWS UP ON YOUR PHONE THE MOST?
names la duh.

28. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
people with bad character

29. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF SINGAPORE(edit according to ur home country)?
duh-uh

30. YOUR WEAKNESS?
i guess it must b my height.

31. WHAT WAS THE LAST GIFT YOU GAVE?
i said i forgot!

32. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE HOLIDAY?
no fav.

33. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
how can i ever forget one. of course!

34. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE THIS?
fb-ing and chatting

35. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
dont ask me.

36. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
i'll cry! no. i'll go to jail. since its illegal

37 WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
nothing.

38. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
nope.

39. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
nope. not when you know that the stars are there to stay and wont change anything in your life. im practical.

40. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
wow. actually no. but i cant do shit about it.

41. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE VEGETABLE?
vegetable? thats a loose term. broccoli?

42. ANY BAD HABITS?
vulgarities/

43. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
i dont buy cds. hardly.

44. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
perhaps. if i like his/her face.

45. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
yeah. but it wasnt anything huge anws.

46. DO LOOKS MATTER?
nope. not at all.

47. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER?
play bball/pump iron/beat the crap out of someone

48. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
school?

49. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
not exactly.

50. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE?
hmmmm dont really have one.

51. ARE YOU AFRAID OF GROWING UP?
i guess so. kinda scary that im gonna leave education and leave these friends and stuff in a few more years. no more waking up early to go school, no more teachers no more hw no more free gyms. it has to be freaky.

52. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
of course!

53. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS?
nope!

54. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?
okok la

55. WHAT IS THE MOST PAIN YOU HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED?
fracturing my arm?

56. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
nope! too lazy alr plus you still need to tie it back the next day again!

57. LAST THING YOU SPILLED?
my protein shake. its sticky and its stuck on my com table.

58. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?
crayfish!:D

59. FAVOURITE COLOURS?
black.

60. WHAT'S THE LAST BOOK YOU READ?
angels and demons.

61. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
if they are so free like me.

62. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM VACATION?
go to space:)

63. LAST THING YOU ATE/DRANK?
ice milo:D

64. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
some friend of mum. just answered the house phone.

65. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
not really. depends on how you define love.

66. FAVOURITE DRINK?
soya bean/ milo

67. FAVOURITE ZODIAC SIGN?
no idea.

68. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SPORT?
basketball!

69. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOUR?
black:)

70. EYE COLOUR?
black too:D

71. TALL OR SHORT?
its average i swear.

72.SIBLINGS?
2 annoying sisters

73. FAVOURITE MONTH?
december

74. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
hell yeah!

75. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Lockdown on NGC

76. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
1/1

77. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
nope.

78, SUMMER OR WINTER?
winter

79. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
RELATIONSHIPS!

80. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
no idea

81. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
no idea too.

82. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
i guess and hope not?

83. BIGGEST FEAR(S)
to fail my EOY

84. LOUD OR QUIET?
loud

85. FAVORITE MOVIE?
eagle eye.

86. IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU MET SOMEONE WHO HAS CHANGED YOUR LIFE?
yep.

87. HAVE YOU EVER REJECTED SOMEONES CALL ON PURPOSE?
yes. for fun of course. remember i have two annoying sisters?

88. FACEBOOK OR MYSPACE?
fb

89 MORNING OR NIGHT?
night

90. DO YOU SPEND YOUR LIFE ON FACEBOOK?
nope! its supposed to be a social networking website but nobody is actually socialising on it!

91. DESCRIBE YOURSELF IN ONE WORD.


92. DREAM JOB?
havent thought of it yet

93. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTER-LIFE?
nope.

94. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF MARRIAGE?
a commitment. lifelong.

95. HAVE YOU DONE SOMETHING YOU REGRETTED IN THE PAST YEAR?
yeah.

96. IS THERE SOMEONE YOU WANT TO BE WITH RIGHT NOW?
nope. not anymore.

97. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
my cheekbones are ridiculously huge.

98. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WATCHED A MOVIE WITH?
classmates. lazy to name one.

99. WHAT WAS IT?
Transformers.

100. TAG 25 PEOPLE!
im not on fb.
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done!


we show our morals by practising them rather then preaching them.
no wonder everybody is immoral.

i went to de gym today!!
with jb nicky and les.
apparently nicky was sick so he was there to slack only.
haha so many people falling ill lor.
i have two teachers that are on mc LOL.
eh no threee.
but ms tan still come today to take photo!
zzzzz.

i slept like at almost 1am yesterday!!
all thanks to the great CID.
received news that our data had came in and we had to draw tables and graphs on excel and give it to her in the morning.
so i stayed up to complete it.
with the help of my sis doing the graphs because i'm an excel noob!
at least we did de work
but still....
our cid is screwed up la.
just ask any member.
we have alot of missing data and stuff

i used to be love drunk.

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven’t heard

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one sip would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We’re spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
But now I’m so broken that I can’t get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now its just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one sip would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab is everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one sip would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Now it’s over
I still taste it on my tongue

GREAT SONG!!!!
but if i can change the lyrics,
i'll change it to
"i used to be love drunk, but now i am sober":D
makes more sense.
haha.

love drunk no more.
not ever again.
but;
I still taste it on my tongue

paralysed legs

my legs are like muscle ache like crazy now.
cos friday's training was crazy like siao.
coach made us jump like 80 times(no JOKE) with a 3 kg medicine ball in hand.
den another 60++++++++++++(apparently lost count) more times with a normal ball.
its real good training for a solid butt i tell you
damn i swear it beats any other gym session.
couldnt sit properly on a toilet bowl de next day.
and today,
even worse.
i went home on friday and slept for 12 hours.
wow i MISSed training.
not anymore LOL.

speaking of bball
i was saying i would quit bball if someone initiated a taekwondo club.
and i'll be there and be BOSS!!!
muhahaha.
i wish.
anyway speaking of tkd,
the best case scenario is that im going for my senior belt conversion in march.
and i'll be a senior 2nd dan by the end of the year:D
that would rock:D
but there's alot to do:|

and speaking of alot to do.
i have to complete my CID report already.
dang.
its damns screwed up.
we havent even gotten our results yet!
how to possibly write the results section?
nvm.
i'll just do what im in charged of.
which is areas for further improvements.
and i freaking terrible 6 lines in hours.
thanks to FACEBOOK and GAMES.
ARGHHHH!

speaking of facebook.
i found this quiz.

How much teachers hate me
Fill out each one you've done THIS school year.
When you're done multiply the number you got by three.

[ ] Gotten a referral
[ ] Gotten detention
[ ] Gotten your cell phone/ipod taken away
[ ] Gotten suspended
[x] Chewed gum/sweets during class
[ ] Got In School Suspension
TOTAL SO FAR = 1

[ ]Gotten late to a class more than 10 times
[X] Didn't do homework over 15 times
[X] Returned at least 2 projects in late.
TOTAL SO FAR = 3

[ ] Missed school cause you felt like it
[ ] Skipped class at least 1 time
[ ] Laughed so hard you got kicked out of class
TOTAL SO FAR = 3

[x] Texted people during class
[x] Passed notes
[x] Threw stuff across the room
[x] Laughed at the teacher
TOTAL SO FAR = 7

[x] Went on myspace, friendster, facebook , xanga , etc on the computer at school
[x] Took pictures during school hours
[x] Called people during school hours
[X] Listened to an ipod cd player/mp3 during class
[x] Hit a teacher or student with a textbook (just a textbook??!)
TOTAL SO FAR = 13

[ ] Threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the class room without permission
[X] Failed a class this year
[x] Ate food during class
TOTAL SO FAR= 16

[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved bad
[X] Didn't take your stuff to school
[ ] Gotten detention and didn't go
[ ] Used passes from other days/Or made fake pass
[X] yelled during class loud enough so the teacher could hear
TOTAL SO FAR = 18

[x] Slept during some of class
[X] Played basketball with paper balls using a trash can as a basket
[X] threatened a teacher
[ ] Felt hungry during class and went home to eat
[X] Treat the teacher as invisible
TOTAL = 21

now multiply the number by 3

63%! :D

SORRY TEACHERs.
i hate you as much as you hate me.

argh cant go gym today.
nvm i'll go tmr.
this week's upper back training!!
im gonna double my napfa 5 pullups to 10.
and i will.

time to complete my areas for improvement section.
and improve my production rate.

还放不下我

at least the stress is over for awhile.
i swear that if these tests and stuff keep on coming,
i'll break.
seriously.
thank god its friday tmr:D

cca tmr!
i didnt go on tuesday.
so i hope i dont die tomorrow.
its been so long since i had training and im starting to miss it.
i guess its possible to miss something you dont really like.
hahaa well what to do bball is the only way to keep fit!

you know how sometimes you have a make decision
and one of which is something that you really wanna do.
well now i wished i didnt pick that choice.
guess it isnt always right to fight fate;
just like i have been all this long.

anyway
im on a tight budget nowadays
and i dont like to spend on things that are not worth anymore.
for the same reason i didnt wanna watch ice age 3D today.
after watching monsters vs aliens i felt that it was a waste of money already.
but i keep finding that i spend more than i need.
i gotta stop that spendthrift habit.
so now.
things i will only spend on are recess, drinks and gym.
cos the school gym is srsly pathetic.


sometimes i ask myself whats my motivation for going to the gym and pumping iron.

i just found the reason today.

dont believe everything happiness says.
i had to remind myself again.

again and again

i have decided, to revive this blog.

(and i am like what is wrong with blogger?!)

what caused me to revive it?
i also dunno,
probably out of boredom; and the fact that i was in the toilet thinking about it.
LOL.
anyway, i'm not telling anyone.
so if you happen to chance upon my url again and realise my blog is up and running,
do tag!!

anyway two months after i stopped blogging,
life hasn't changed much for me.
so not much to update.
i blog just to keep myself focused and organise my thoughts better.
not for any viewers and more importantly any of your views.
anyway two months passed,
ive matured, gained more muscle, got lazier, and have two new pet crayfish living in a small tank.
yeah i keep pets to entertain myself,
how pathetic.
but who cares since i suddenly am enlightened the meaning of being a free man.
i dont have to follow anyone's views or wants;
i can go anywhere and do anything i wan without considering the consequences or impacts that it might bring to anyone;
i can go gym whenever i want;
and spend my own money.
crudely put,
but you get what i mean.
if you don't thats your loss.

well i have come to realise that fact and yeah it takes quite alot of my chest.
though many shit is still stressing on me.
like the fact that im short of money nowadays.
yeah quite rare huh
LOL
but im serious cash tight now( if that is de right word to use)
and i have lots of issues about school that are tough to deal with i swear.
now i feel like going to school has no meaning at all.
only for bball and gym.
free gym so good.
i just went today with the other bballers.
hahaha.
and now i have a headache.
bad day to play bball and gym when you have a flu.

anws i find blogging unexciting.
just a way to kill time.
i need rest.