its all over

this is traumatizing
i fking hate ptm
like oh so hate
to me
its not parent-teacher meeting
instead its teachr parent meeting
like wtf can
all those teachers only noe how to complain and complain
about me
cos they have nth else to do bout me
and they are so eager to make sure a get it from them
sadistic retards
it doesnt really make a difference you noe
then when ptm comes
they start brain storming for a 500 word long script
and i srsly think they memorise it all in their brains
complete with wonderful vocabulary of their own to describe me
as if im some experimental shit you all have
and u have absolutely every right to fking complain
like right in front of me?
i'll swallow it
of cause i would
im not like some ass who shoot their mouths off as and when they like
hmmm
maybe they even practise at home
who noes
but u ppl dont really have to complain bout me
cos u don understand a shit
and when u dont
then neither does my dad understand a shit
so no want understands any shit
only i understand my own deep shit
that i dont have the time for myself anymore
that i am under tremendous stress
that i srsly need a fucking break from school
that i hate this life
that i hate being in this dilemma
that i don't feel happy with this crap i get
that i hate everybody that gets in my way
that i don even understand why i shld be here
that i don have a bloody choice
that i don understand why im doing everything for you
that i need you to fucking understand at least some shit
and get that in ur head
or i reallly will go crazy

thanks for all you have said
im just happy everyone's happy
except me