i don't know why but i feel so sad and melancholic. and no it is not PW. its just the fact that people i know are either unable to make it or on the edge of being unable to promote is such a wretched thing. i cannot imagine not being able to move on, having to stay and rehash the year's work over again. while being thrown into a completely new and unfamiliar company. it sucks just thinking about that already. i just feel so helpless and powerless when i think about how people are going to have to spend another year doing what they have done the year before.

it just makes me think of Coach Ken Carter's words in Coach Carter:

"I see a system that is designed for you to fail"

but this time the system is designed to see you succeed, even at the expense of retaining and wasting time. its so freaking ridiculous that students who dont do well in the first year have to stay back just to make sure they do well for A levels in order to gain the sch some reputation, and more importantly results. i don't know but i just think its not the right way education should be given.

and once again, i feel so compelled to say this:

"Those at the top of the totem pole never really see what's at the bottom."

i have observed too much in school lately to not say this.