reality life.

sometimes its hard
but we do have to face the reality
because its life
and life throws tantrums too.
and we just have to grin and bear it.

yesterday was the most tired day of my post exam life
first was pe with 4 rounds around de track
i clocked 7min10sec only
and it was already very tiring already.
then after school we had the 3000 m race
its so stressing can
to know that you will be lapped by yithong
and the rest of the competitors are either seniors or faster runners.
but at least i thought i did beyond my expectations
almost became 4th at the last sprint
but still
its not bad
i do wonder why i pushed myself so hard though.

its hard to balance with aching muscles
i almost fell on the MRT on the way home
lucky i never fall flat
if not very malu siahh

you know sometimes i think that when we do something very often
it gets taken for granted
saying things too
it loses meaning eventually.
i leave it hanging here

its never fifty-fifty they say
its always seventy-thirty or sixty-forty
someone falls first;
someone puts someone else up on a pedestal.
someone works very hard to keep things rolling smoothly;
someone else sails along for the ride.
let's make sure that its fifty-fifty
so no one would have to do anything to keep it the way it was at the beginning.

what if all were to disappear?
who is gonna say sorry?