you make me smile like the sun.

-a fresh flower, the same shrub.

i don't know why i decided to blog again
but i know this wont last.
just using this as a portal to express what i think i guess.
well lets promise myself everything here would be on a surface level
nothing more i hope.

anyway lets see, whats new in life. A new DSLR, a few burned pockets, a crushed knuckle a changed and less rebellious me. the only thing im happy about is perhaps the new DSLR. cos it doesn't seem like anything changed at all- do not try to infer too much. and yeah i love my new DSLR. but yet it all seems to link up. ever since i injured my hand i stopped playing basketball because i just couldn't! so i went to photography club and everything is so different. you tell yourself people change things change. Hearts change. so yeah i guess its about time i start getting used to it and you to start getting used to me.
i've become more passive and less agressive(well its the same thing i know). just like today in tkd some freaking white belt was really getting on my nerves thinking that he knew that much and was taking the teaching into his own hands. i could have just told him off and give him the worst dressing down he could get but i dint. lets all learn to tolerate shall we. anyway there's not many things that irritate me much nowadays cause its just repetitive. life is as circular as it gets.
its all about going to school, having lessons, starving to save up, going home, sleeping. well at least this is something new. speaking of starving i'm already so damn used to it. its nice to know that i can save so much money by saving my allowance. but hey money is never enough is it. or rather, DLSR lenses are never enough.

but hey my views on certain topics hasn't changed much.
just like the school student counsel committee. everyone knows how much of a facade it really is. almost everyone of the people i know who are there are there for their god forsaken portfolio. go figure. now we have a new president; who really cares? call me sour grapes and I'll tell you that i despise grapes. anyway i just figure that i should live my life and not give a shit about others. but whatever i choose to judge you is my choice. which i dont mind sharing because i really think its bullshit. really.

hey who says the volcano erupting is bad? i instead think that it saves the earth rather. a volcano eruption spews so much particles that reflects the sun's rays away and provide a cooling effect on the Earth. after all Krakatoa caused a world wide drop in temperature of about 2 degrees Fahrenheit. well i may be wrong for all i know but the number of planes that the volcano stopped really did let mankind reflect on his thirst for transportation. all look, less planes in the air, less
fuel burnt. do you know how much CO2 is released just keeping a few tonnes of metal and people in the air? well i don't, do you?
maybe we should all let climate change and disaster take over the world.
then humans would really learn our lesson wouldnt we?


i once shared with a friend that life is a play, and we get to choose the actors in our life. we get to choose who to play the leading roles and who to play the side roles. however what we don't get to choose is what the actors will say and do in our life. i.e, we are not the directors of our life. so to not risk it, i choose my actors properly.
(remember: i said as surface level as possible)


this post is dedicated to Alvin, who kept asking me to update this blog, well here it is.

Sparks fly, it’s like electricity
I might die, when I forget how to breath
You get closer and there’s no where
In this world I’d rather be
Time stops, like everything around me is frozen
And that the night is the thieves
Few moments when you open
My mind to things I’ve never seen

Chorus
Cause when I’m kissin u my senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I’ve been tryin to find
Falls right into place you’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away when I’m kissing you
When I’m kissin u it all starts making sense
And all the questions I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
How clear it becomes when I’m kissing you

Past loves they never got really far
Walls of pictures I’ve got in my heart
And I promise I wouldn’t do this
Till I knew it was right for me

But no one (no one) no guy that I met before
Could make me (make me) feel so right and secure
And have you noticed I loose my focus
And the world around me disappears
Chorus
Cause when I’m kissin u my senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I’ve been tryin to find
Falls right into place you’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away when I’m kissing you
When I’m kissin u it all starts making sense
And all the questions I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
How clear it becomes when I’m kissing you

Bridge
I’ve never felt nothing like this
You’re makin me open up
No point in even tryin to fight this
It kinda feels like it’s love

Chorus
Cause when I’m kissin u my senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I’ve been tryin to find
Falls right into place you’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away when I’m kissing you
When I’m kissin u it all starts making sense
And all the questions I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
How clear it becomes when I’m kissing you